workload

keje x selalunye best...
well,am encountered few MOs mcm harimau...and obviously am avoiding them...few of my colleagues know that..well,their behaviour was like harimau that i should ran so fast and so farr..

few incidents happen when im working..kene marah ngan MO,kene soal dgn specialist, and bla2...

the 1st ever scary thing ive done was i didn't present myself during briefing time in the morning..i was the one in-charge of ward 2A, and supposedly i have to present SCN (baby) admission during the briefing.but then suddenly 2 EMLSCS happen in the morning, and i didnt have time to update the SCN update (yeah,it was on-call time), and memang x sempat langsung la gi PLOG to present kan...huhu..and im soooo dead...
the specialist called me up and i ve to do an explanation letter to them..luckily,am save bcz one of the specialist knew im in the OT...and dr Shaheeran said,'adik,this is common-sense x blaja kat medical school tau'...and she is sooo kind.....

well,the specialists are better than the MOs...


yesterday i was on-call alone in the ward..and in the middle of night, one of the post-ELLSCS ptn complained of vomiting and epigastric pain..she's indian, and from her looking, MANJAlitist is the most common diagnosis i can made..ok la,da ptn mengadu,kt kene attend jugak..so,we started her with syrup MMT..and she's vomit out the drugs with the food (tlg la,dia ckp dia mkn sikit je,tp muntah nasik byk)..hurm..so,next,bg IV ranitidine and IV Maxolone..muntah jugak..sob2...
k la,call MO...naseb bek he's a male Chinese dr, so im a bit save..xtakut sgt sbb dr ni baik la jgak..

and he came in after i present the case through phone..hurm2..dia marah sbnrnye when he's looking through my report,pendek gila and mcm x access pape pun kat ptn tu.heh..padan muka hang mimi oiii...ingatkan simple je ptn ni,meme simple pun,tp sbb kerja kan,kene la buat thourughly..well, i learn sumthing that night..
the drugs given and how to write the report in the BHT..huhu...

k la,will update again later...

well,tgh kelibut jugak sbb xleh bukak fb and yahoomail..mcm hampes je dia reject my password..ades2

work

yeah..am a working lady now..huhu
alhamdulillah..working in a big hospital..yet the busiest hospital in Msia...sob2..


1st posting: o&g..
hem,choose this 1st becasue i like o&g?maybe..

but then,after few weeks of working, feel like huk2..reeeeeeeaalllly tired..ive lost 5 kgs in 10 days..
well2,during tagging, ive been bullied by one of the MO..seriously i hate it..dun feel to be friend with that person ever..sob2..nak pandang muka dia pun xnak.da la emo!

and today, the specialist already recognize me..during round in the super pasar malam labour room, she noted that i didn't write the VE as a full clerking.sob2...kalo MO lain review,simple2 je..xsangka plak kene ngan specialist td..sob2..sedih!

masuk OT smpai 4 kes emergency rini, and byk kali kene tegur..sob2..sedih2!!

and the best part is, at last i assist the specialist during emergency LSCS!!mati den..gilo kjap jadiknye..tremor abes..and she recognise me walaupun i tried to hide myself dlm mask..hukz..

well,alhamdulillah, am still alive and surviving the hard work now...
would like to give hugs and kisses to my parents and family for their endless support and love..really need them everyday...and they were like,visiting me once  a week..hoho..


alhamdulillah..
oh Allah, pls make me strong..pls make ppl surrounding me be nice to me..and me myself be nice to them..

envy

U know the feeling of ‘been taken away’?

Once my friend (A) asked me in the car when we were on our  way to our friend’s wedding  in Segamat. We were talking about our friend (B) who have been engage and will be getting married sooner or later. And mind that A and B were best friend since school time. A didn’t really like the story of B getting engage & married.haha..u know those feelings right?or u don't? ahha..

Same goes to me when A asked me, how is my feeling getting a ‘kaklong’ in the house? Yeah, my brother was getting married u know, 22nd August (his birthdate) few days ago, and suddenly i have a sister.a sister? Yes, an elder sister!(despite me being the eldest sister in the house)

I won’t care actually whether being an elder or not..but the mixed feeling of getting a new member in our family, i think i need time to adjust with that situation. ME ENVY. Really.

What do i feel?

I feel jealous when kaklong called my mother ibu and my dad is baba. And my parents also membahasakan diri masing2 as ibu and baba to kaklong. I feel really jealous when now my mother sits with kaklong despite of me. Me so childish. Aigooooooo

feel jealous when my aunty and uncle talk about kaklong.kah2.

and kaklong is a silent lady whom i just heard few words from her..

and really am appreciated her when she called me kakngah.heh~

Still i feel jealous with kaklong.haha...lawak gak la,rasa mcm budak kecik yg tetibe kehilangan arah.tetibe rasa her parents got another nice new thing and forget about her.haha..bedebush2...tumbuk la muka sendiri..

Well,am adapting my new life, my new family member..maaf atas khilafan dari saya..really, i didn’t mean to avoid u kaklong, but i feel like i need time to adjust myself with the surrounding..

time will heal us. i know we will be a very good friend one day.yeah, one day.

ramadhan

alhamdulillah..da masuk hari ke 19 ramdhan..dah 19 hari kite berpuasa..(ok,ada lompong,tp Allah yg bg.hihi)
well,this time around,agak best ramadhan sbb pe?

sebab,im HOME for the whole puasa!!yeay!!for the 1st time okay...ye lor,before ni kan duk asrama,masuk hostel,duk umah sewa...so,kesempatan berbuka dan berpuasa di rumah hanyalah pada hari minggu...this time aorund, i ve plan for sumthing for my family..niatnye,untuk mendapatkan kesihatan rohani dan jasmani,pada kadar yg optimum..ala,gaya mcm Lee Chong Wey, the pocketrocketman dll.. semangat tau gi olimpik 2012 ni..

1.sahur
yup,sy da start kan my parents to sahur dengan oats before ramadhan lagi..rejab,syaaban kite digalakkan berpuasa and they also did fasting initially dengan oats..lama2,diaorg pun biasa dengan oats,alhamdulillah..as we all know,oat can reduce cholesterol in our body right?so,amal2kan slalu k..

2.tadarus & quran
my aim is to khatam quran this Ramadhan..tp memandangkan progress yg sgt slow,sy cuba juge untuk membaca Quran. the aim is u read the quran..whether khatam or not,itu no 2...yg penting,baca okay..and my mom pun rajen bertadarus..lpas solat dhuha ke,pas mgrib ke,mesti suh anak2 yg available dgr dia baca..well,its good thou..

3. upgrade solat
as we all know,Allah memberi ganjaran yg sgt bsr kpd hamba2 yg berlumba2 membuat amal di bulan penuh rahmah ini..so,jom kite isi masa pagi dengan wat sunat dhuha..once my ustaz said,nabi Muhammad pun x tinggal solat dhuha ni..if dia x buat,rasa berdosa sgt..so,jom kt amalkan sama2 k..other than that is sunat tarawih..jom la kite buat..rugi x buat sbb time ramdhan je kt jumpa tarawih ni..sujud kat Allah byk2,insyaAllah,cerah hati kite nanti..kumpul pahala kan nak masuk syurga...bukan je solat sunat,tp solat fardhu pun..alhamdulillah..pas sahur yg agak lewat (kan sunnah sahur dilewatkan), my parents and i will heading to the surau in front of our house..subuh jemaah..once hadith said,kalau umat nabi ni tahu betapa bsar ganjaran Allah bg kpd ssp yg solat jemaah subuh & isyak,nescaya mereka akan pergi juge ke masjid walaupun dlm keadaan merangkak..jadi,kite yg masih sihat walafiat cukup sempurna anggota,jom g jemaah k!=)
looking forward lailatulqadr!jom kite wat qiam ari2 k..


4. berbuka
well,as usual my mother will prepare the dish.and of course sedap sehingga menjilat jari..and my dad will eat like heavenly..ni agak payah sebenarnye..kkekekee...sebab ibu masak mmg sedap..nak kata 'baba!xleh tambah nasi!'.mcm susah je kan..but then,alhamdulillah,xde la membazir sepanjang ramadhan ni..sbb kite xmkn nasi time sahur..so,ibu msk comel2 je...and alhamdulillah juge,i asked my parents and family to berbuka di masjid..da pegi masjid sg landak,masjid paroi,masjid putrajaya...plan to go to masjid putrajaya again this week(sbb best sgt terasa mcm kat meqah balik) also masjid negara KL..kat masjid ni,boleh la kite belajar mkn ala kadar kan..kat umah xleh kan..hehe...and pahala yg sgt besar menanti sape2 yg menyediakan mknn untuk org berbuka kan..we invite all families to break fast at our home few days ago..awesome!


5. buat part time
puasa bukan alasan yg kukuh kite nak goyang kaki kat umah,main game tup bukak mata je,.hehe..alhamdulillah,i think,most of my times really pack with things..i went to boutique in the morning,and ajar tuition anak pakngah in the evening..(cmne la nak belajar masak kalo ari2 balik time nak berbuka?hehe) plus, i did part time during weekends aritu..jaga booth baby kak ina..ni da kali ke-3 keje ngan kak ina..3 hari je keje,dpt rm350..best la kan?alhamdulillah..looking forward to do any jobs jugak..ye la,sebelum dpt surat masuk spital pasni kan...huhu


ok,that's all..pape pun,betulkan sy kalo de pape yg slh k...
yg baik tu dr Allah,yg buruk tu dr hamba Allah ini..hakikatnye,semua datang drNya..
moga memberi manfaat!

pre-grad

alhamdulillah, im officially done with my medical school=)

looking forward to work...

which hospital?

rahsia...

hehe

2 down. 1 to go

alhamdulillah..

really happy today..just finish my long case aka OSLER examination..observed long case and am gratefully to get an obstretric case!!!   Yuhuu!!!!!alhamdulillah=)

last week was my OSCE, 8 station right?really tearful..sedih jgak sbb byk kantoi except the counselling part.bese la org pmpn like me kan byk mulut..huhu..agak safe di situ..hopfully pe mende yg dibebelkan itu gaining me marks..

and just now finish my long case with the o&g specialist, Dr Jamil from Kajang tu, yg serius sokmo xnak senyum tu..accompany by mr eee, the surgeon specialist...and i think, alhamdulillah, i did it quite well..gestational diabetes mellitus..
somehow before this, da ade aura that ill get obs case, and i feel to get GDM..maybe sbb penah baca satu blog senior,one of yg i admired, she got GDM for her long case..and she did it quite well..so,mcm ada aura la kat situ..
and another aura is, i feel that im going to be an o&g specialist in my future...boleh ke?hehe

now palpitation for tomorrow afternoon. our last OSCE that carries another 25%...

wish me luck okay???


=)

esok.final.exam.

esok my final exam will start..will end next week.

pray for me..insyaAllah,ill do my best =)

"اللَّهُمَّ لا سَهلَ إِلاَّ مَا جَعَلْتَهُ سَهْلاً ، وَ أَنْتَ تَجْعَلُ الْحُزْنَ إِذَا شِئْتَ سَهْلاً"

Maksudnya: “Ya Allah tidak ada kemudahan selain apa yang Engkau jadikan mudah dan Engkau dapat menjadikan perkara sulit menjadi mudah jika Engkau kehendaki”.

my friend share this in fb,i share it here..

moga bermanfaat..

father's day

usually we sibling didn't really celebrate father's day..
becasue why?
we also dunno...hehe

so,2 days ago, 17 jun 2012 aka Sunday, i asked help from my parents to clear up my things in my house in Putrajaya..kan kiteorg da nak abes skola kat sini, so kene la pindahkan barang before 30 Jun..disebabkan sy duk umah ni mcm princess segala kelengkapan cukup, bayangkan aje, my room has a single comfy bed, with big cupboard and a big study table and small lappy table, as my parents nak anak dia cukup segala keperluan..is there anything to repay back what's ur parents done to u? no..only Allah can balas them with jannah insyaAllah..

so, they came over at 3pm and by that time, i already kemas2 brg tinggal nak masuk kete je..and baba betulkan pintu toilet da rosak proceed with bukak almari tu and bukak meja and lastly bukak katill...hukz,sedih sbab katil best da kene bawak balik sban..wa!!!!

and mother offer me to go home to ambil balik tilam yg ringan sikit tuk pki bbrp kat sini je..pk nye pk,i agreed tgk baba mcm letih je pas bukak2 sume brg kan...and truly pun,i offered baba to drive initially, tp baba xmoh.hehe..tp smpi cyberjaya je,baba stop the car tepi highway and asked me to drive..few minutes later, baba snoring at the back..<___>

well, yeah, janji nak balik putrajaya early monday morning, tp angan2 tinggal angan2 sahaja..haha..i went to giant ampangan as Farah our workers pun da benti sbb nak masuk belaja, so xde sape jaga boutique..so, i brought my books and alhamdulillah, sempat la buat notes for paeds cases..konon2 nak balik tgh harirasa mls..and at last, paksa jugak balik after asar..huhu..

and me drive again, and baba snoring at the back and mother and me borak2 mmg best..hihi

k,really appreciate my parents..hope Allah jaga mereka sebagaimana mereka menjaga kami adik beradik dr ekcik smpai besar gajah ni...amin...

appreciate our job

engage

well today, i got a big news..surpridsed!!!!!yeah,just now one of my bff got engage!!!
i wanna laugh..hahahaha!!!bcz the person she got engage was our friend also whom i hate very much during school..huhu

congratulation to my STJ's member, Syazwani @ pearl..bertunang ari ni (9/6/2012)..well,pearl is a final yr med student at Manipal, engaged with Azfa, our x-KMA in school..Azfa is now working with Petronas,as ape ntah...plus he's getting bigger also after school..aiyooh,sume boroi...

last week was my another bff got engage..Aqilah @ phoebe (2/6/2012)..she's a new teacher, will be transport out to Sarawak, so her fiance wanna get engage dulu, sbb fiance dia pun kene transfer sarawak, they were really far apart..line tepon pon susah nak dpt..and alhamdulillah, selamat sudah bertunang..

plus my another bff Illiana from STJ also.. she got engage with her firend sama maktab..(1/6/2012)..but illi dapat skola dekat je kat melaka, tp fiance dia jauh kot kat ganu.hehe...xpe,da jodoh depa, semoga cepat kawen..

and in addition of that, i got few invitation cards from our batch in CUCMS, who'll be getting married few weeks time!yeah,just after the pro exam,jom la pakat ramai2 gi wedding azlina with farid ,and shazana with his friend, hafiz..

well,well,well...everyone already making new steps towards the future..it shows that they really keen to make big step, big decision in life..getting married is not that easy u know..ye la,if it's easy, i da lama kawen,balong pun da kawen.haha...sumtimes, i feel like to get married, but another time, i feel  like, nothing, no feel to get married..no fun with it..huhu..(mind ur word mimi) yeah, lot of factor and experience am gone through..tiredness, yeah,maybe im just a student. let us finish our school life!!!ho yeah!!

final??

today i got tremor, palpitation, sweating, manic sket2, plus feeling of luar biasa takut nye untuk exam!!!
(ergh,kantoi sebelum ni feel nak exam tu xde lagi..lembapnye feeling ni datang!!!) ok,actually sekarang baru rasa nak gelabah sakan..woott!!!den nak pekso nih!!!!woott!!!!takotnye!!!!

alkisah bermula apabila pada hari ini,prof latiff buat mock osce as usual (mksudnye b4 ni memang da biasa wat la kan)..practise and practise osce for the exam nnt la..and we were in group of 4, trying to be the patient, a doctor and the examiner...dang~

kantoi sudah banyak step tertinggal2 sedang kami melakukan practise2 sedemikian rupa=(

maka timbullah keinsafan dalam hatiku yg tebal dengan kuping2 sampai x terasa cuaknye exam nih..maka arini,apabila kuping2 ni da terkoyak,keluarlah segala hormon2 smpaikan all symphatetic activation berlaku, dan sy berjanji pada saat ini sy akan belajar dengan bersungguh2!!!

ho yeah!!!

well,actually, dr shu telah menyediakan kami dengan sesungguh hatinya untuk exam preparation ni.buktinya, setiap hari sabtu (termasuk esok hari), kami akan berlatih membuat osce station, in a group of 3@4 jugak, dan bergilir2 menjadi examiner,doctor and patient..and it helps a lot..really..and she already started this free-exam-preparation-class for few months back..moga Allah sahaja membalas budi baik cikgu kesayangan kami nih..

so,kesimpulan sy nak buat adalah, kite kene focus dengan apa yg kite buat..cthnye,exam yg bakal kami kami hadapi adalah osce (8 station + 8 station) and 1 long case..makanya, disini,kite kene practise on each other on how to tackle or play with the game ie the exam..

jadual exam:
28 Jun (khamis): 8 station OSCE in the college
3@4 July(selasa rabu): long case in the hospital (scary part ni weyh!!)ni kene tggu list name keluar..
5 July: another 8 station OSCE in the college
6 July: RESULT!!


apabila perasaan cuak nak exam ni tumbuh dengan berlalang2 sekarang nih, i feel like gelabah u know..gelabah sebab, kami terpaksa kelaur dr rumah ni pada 30 jun, dimana sy memerlukan sebuah tempat tinggal sementara nak exam..ye la,exam kami smpai 5 july..so,dimana perlu sy tinggal pada 5 hari itu????waaaaaa...(ok,da terbayang muka kwn2 rumah nak menyempit)

and lagi satu,i got big problem with my 'vacation' ticket to Vietnam with my mummy..still am negotiating with myself, nak pergi or xnak..sobz...sbabnye,da beli tiket tu pada 24 jun,and it's promotion ticket, where u will be penalised if u nak tukar 2 tarikh (and mind u airasia x bg tukar org skarg ni) and the price will be like triple, fortle (kalo de term tu lah)...hurm, and i know my mom need me to go there to help her alot, i mean, a lot...huhu~

what say u?

labor room

1st day in labour room, i was having tremor despite all of the exciting rushing in my veins and arteries..i know ill be super excited watching all the small khalifah being delivered in the labour room...

well yeah, u have all the good news and bad news also..on my 1st day of menjejak kaki di labour room yg super sejuk itu, i almost cried when a baby was safely delivered with the kepayahan sang ibu cube meneran dengan sepenuh tenaga..i think i almost cry when all mothers delivered their loved once.every time i watched all the ladies delivered their babies, i remembered my luvly mother..how she delivered me yeah?know what im the heaviest baby among my siblings.haha..3.67kg, who can beat my bobop body?should be very hard,isnt it?

the most funny thing is when there is a husband of this one patient was really excited to get his 5th children. while the isteri was having regular abdominal contraction sambil berselawat and said Allah almost the time dengan kuat, the husband was mundar mandir kat luar bilik while the dr check jalan b4 deliver..and as u know,bila da banyak kali delivered, Allah mudahkan ibu2 ni nak bersalin..and so when the dr said,ok encik husband boleh masuk!baby da nak keluar! and suddenly mcm kuda bergerak dgn pantasnye dia terjah masuk bilik bersalin tu and terus ckp, "ibu,push ibu!!push!!and he was like a doctor plak nak sambut baby dia..seriuosly nmpk kelam kabut.hek3..tp kelakar ok bila dia terjah masuk mcm org main lumba lari..


staying in putrajaya make u always see all new couples yg baru berkahwin and waiting for their 1st child..yeah, 1st child is quite hard to deliver..there is one ibu was having regular contraction and ready to deliver the baby. she was like really afraid, despite her husband is there beside her and holding her firmly. she always said,'abg,saket abg,xmau,xmau'..and she was crying!!really in pain,pain she never experienced before. and the husband was quite cool and said,"adik,kuat adik!sikit lagi da nampak rambut tu"..and he didn't speak much...after 20  minutes trying to push but seems didn't really effective, the dr decide to use vacuum.and alhamdulillah, the baby boy weigh 3.5kg (still cannot beat me), safely delivered...ingat senang ke nak bersalin?

yeah,most husband didn't really speak while holding his wife..1st experienced i guess. muka masing2 pun cuak..hehe..comel ok..seriously u should watch all husband yg nak dpt anak pertama..some of them just stare, ada yg holding the wife's head je, ada yg usap2 bahu je, yg penting, yeah, they also scared bila tgk wife masing muka merah padam ada yg menangis and stuff...amazing experienced isn't it?

chef of the night!

well,tonight my mother is not at home..yeay??
when she's not around, of coz la i jadi tukang masak kat umah..weee~

actually, today we had a great gathering with our big family as all my family members were here..mak teh's and mak cu's from London already went back here for good, pak long's family went back Seremban from JB for a while,and other uncles and aunties were already here, and grandma decide to do BBQ for everyone..yeay!!!kenyang sgt!!sorry no pic as semua da kebulur nak makan all the fishes and chickens and hot dogs plus the caramels and bubur kacang and byk sgt makanan~

and after the gathering all the org tua went for a meeting..semua adek beradik belah ibu duk bersama2 to discuss something important i think..so, i went back home to settle my few works..

and tonight, my mother called me to cook for dinner..hehhe..ske2...actually, i didnt really into cooking as when i went home, mother will already cook for me...u know, mom loves cooking and she will cook our favorite dish every week..so,sy mengambil kesempatan not to cook..sigh~mengada sungguh kan..takat tolong2 kacau pastu menghilangkan diri dari dapur tu slalu la..hehe

so,mlm ni,ibu xde kat umah,i'll be the chef!
and bukak je pti ais,terus nmpk banyak telur..and ada ikan..and salad..
and rasa nak masak sambal telur hancur (oh,da lama x makan lauk simple ni), and ikan masak kicap with salad!(sayur is a MUST for me)

ikan ditelenggami kicap recipe

sempat google tuk resipi yg best,so here we go:

bwg merah.putih,halia with bunga lawang,kayu manis...

then,masukkan air asam jawa sket..plus kicap pekat,kicap cair,sos tomato,n cili..

plus cili padi, and lada hitam..

masukkan ikan yg 3/4 goreng..

masukkan tomato..

taraaa!!!

sambal telur favourite balong n baba n me oso

salad : my fav with baba

baba tambah 2x..balong x tambah sebab kene la jaga perut dia da bunchet tu..

tp ske la plak sbb baba tambah,maksudnye,sdap la i masak kan?hihi

it's o&g!!

let us rock!!!
it's our o&g posting and it's our last posting as a student..*-*cuak

well,what can i say about our 1st day in o&g posting?i just can laugh..haha..i ponteng briefing class!!!and the prof  mengamuk mcm nak makan org..hihi
well the truth is im really tired..we just finishing our medical posting, and during weekend my sister and i with few friends did our part-time job at mid valley..kak ina (my boss) called me to handle her booth as before this dia mmg percaya kat daku yg baik hati and peramah ini kan..so,it's fine to me, rm350 for 3 days..sape nak bagi kan?

so,puas punye fikir, the only reason i can ponteng from the one-hour-boring-briefing o&g class on MONDAY morning is to meet the handsome and very kind army dentist ho-yeah~haha...actually i had to do follow up the week before,tp disebabkan posting medical yg mcm huru hara tu, xdapat nak balik sban and meet the dentist.so,dapat la mc on that day..make me safe for awhile..

so,after meet the dentist, he identify my upper teeth ada lobang so,dia tampalkan..sgt cepat & pantas ok..and he made x-ray at my lower teeth at the root canal treatment tu,kot2 ada infection ke, so,it's ok normal no problem..alhamdulillah..and after that,mak teh called asked ibu if we can join them visiting abg abil and his wife..i wasss sooooo excited to meet them!ye la,sblm ni baca dlm blog je kan..plus meeting my mak teh and family,just came back for good from london..alhamdulillah everyone was healthy especially makteh yg sedang preggy..G5 P4..hihi..hebat2...

sempat jugak singgah kedai Bata and bli kasut sbab on sale, buy one pair and the second shoes is just rm5-..sape xnak beb....ibu sepasang,mine sepasang..comey=))

sempat jugak singgah kedai bli glow in the dark nak bg kak gee,sbb abg abil nak cat and put on some glow in the dark to stimulate the brain..it's kind of good and creative u know..oh, wish to have a husband like abg abel..really care and loyal to his the only wife yg sedang sakit, and sgt pembersih and sgt pembersih lg..mana nak jmp lelaki pembersih plus caring terlebih skrg ni...
amin2,moga dimudahkan..

and i called my housemate+groupmate= ain,update la pape yg patut kan..da xdtg klas briefing pg td..hihi..and she said, better we update our patient asap as prof will do round sesuka hati dia bila2 masa on Tuesday..sume ptn WAJIB clerk except yg warded after 7.30am..meaning,clerk je la ur patient on ur bed..or else,ur dead..

so,dgn pantasnye, i went back to Putrajaya after had dinner with my big family..baba anta smpai komuter serdang (kete park sempoi2 je tepi jln),jeles sebenarnye sbb nak join depa gi Chow Kit road, melayan makteh nak mkn buah2 tempatan..yeah,u can find everything at Chow Kit road...jeles2...tp xpe,dsbabkan prof kesayangan sy tu,sy turutkan jua clerking ptn mlm2 tu..luckily ada 3 ptn..one is intrauterine death (IUD), normal vaginal delivery (VSD) and another one is essential hypertensive..sedih gle la plak stat o&g dpt case IUD =(
and the patient is still in the ward waiting to deliver the dead baby normally..she refused to be clerking of course..

prof ARAR's teaching

today, friday 4th May 2012, we had full-pack-class.since morning,up to after jumaat, and evening..
ho yeah~
tired..lethargic..starving..everything...

start with prof ARAR class..as usual, class dia yg sgt2 menakutkan kecut perut diarrhea semua skali termasuk, is all about THINKING PROCESS!

u never learn!
u are all positive learner, why not u become active and think!!
u never learn from ur mistake right...
u'll make ur MO's and specialist full of headache!
u are not up to the expectation! u are all under average doctors!!!

oh my god..sangat pedas ok..SANGAT PEDAS, HOT, rasa terbakaq, suma campuq skali...

yeah, he's our fierce lecturers in CUCMS...but u know, the way he taught us make us remember our mistake and make us sedar diri yg kita ni sangat la x banyak ilmu dik oi!!!!

nak jawab soalan dia pun ketaq2..sekejap2 dia bukak spek tgk sape nak jwb, sekejap2 dia tampaq meja bagi gerun lagi kecut usus kiteorg nih..

sem 10 is all about managing ptn..no more making diagnosis, terkial2 time physical examination.itu year 3 beb!!
adoiii..as usual, he need 2 person to volunteer their case, and 2 volunteers who haven't seen that case..our group leader da assigned me and my friend to present the case, but, i didnt agree with that..he needs volunteer, org yg rela..bukan org yg paksa rela,okay..eventhough my leader tu ikut the list name, tapi list tu da expired since everyone had done their 2 PMR's..so,sy memvolunteerkan diri agar xnak jadi volunteer..

well,best je sbnrnye jd volunteer ni..sbab ARAR akan jadikan mende tu mcm real exam..sume org kumpul satu ptn, the volunteer person akan clerk everything, did PE, and when she's done,masuk bilik,discuss management and few questions regarding the ptn's condition...so untung lah si volunteer tu dpt chance buat mcm tu bersama ARAR..saya mahu tapi TAKOT!!!hihi..i said to myself, if he pointed to me, i will go..definitely la kan kene pegi..

and today in renal ward, alin got ptn electively admitted for CAPD training, and she did well, walaupun ada funny examination dia buat.hihi...

and ilyas prof pilih untuk clerk the parathyroidectomy ptn, and he did it quite bad..sian ilyas dah la dtg lambat,abes kene 'belasah' dgn prof..hewhewhew...

after class around 1pm,sume berkejar nak gi solat jumaat..after jumaat, we had socioculture class. naseb la dlm auditorium yg best nak tido tuh,tp sempat la tido 10 minit kualiti time, sbab dr asyik mundar mandir je..haiyooo...

after socioculture class, ingat nak gi pasar mlm kat precint 2, tp paneh nye ya rabbi..so,balik umah,mandi siap asar sume,ready 'relax' class with beloved dr Rafizi.hihi..he shows us most of the sign yg ada kat ptn, and we discuss case by case in the ward..fun,exciting!!5 minit ptn ni,10 minit ptn tu, so,mcm best la exposure mcm tu..at last, gi ward dialisis, and discuss pasal sume2 mende yg kiteorg da kene marah dgn ARAR..hewhewhew

abes klas selepas azan magrib berkumandang..settle je maghrib kat spital, terus cabut gi pasar mlm..asyik berbunyik2 plak perut ni td.malu je...bukak purse ada rm 5..hihi..student kan,xleh simpan duit byk2 dlm wallet..da pk nak beli jus buah, kepok lekor and bihun sup @ laksa @mee sup..

tgh2 jalan kat psar mlm tu,jmp plak mamat ni yg membuatkan selera makan terbantut...aiyo...seb bek dah beli cendol and kepok lekor..da berisi sket perot...

pro exam

the say will come..another 9 weeks..
we had a light briefing for our pro 3 just now..the schedule already out..
so, to be exact, my exam will started on

28th June 2012 (thursday): 8 station for OSCE..6 minutes each station..with 1 min break in between..focus on relevant history taking , focus PE, relevant investigation, procedure, ect ect

3rd July (tuesday) and 4th July (wednesday): long case in the hospital ..2 groups for each day..i dunno when my name will come out to which day..hope to get good case and manage to answer them well..oh Allah,da rasa cuak..

5Th july (thursday) : another 8 stations OSCE..

and finish our exam,but then

6th july (friday): RESULT!!!!! -_______________- pengsan~

weekend class

sepatutnye today i have 'weekend class' which is a NOT MUST attend class.but it was held by a good dr aka our lecturer, dr Shu and her husband..she really hope us to be a safe and good and knowledgeable doctors, that's y they sacrifices their weekend just to teach us..terharu sgt and rasa berdosa sbnrnye x gi klas dia=(

but then,memandangkan my parents are not around today (they went to mother's cousin wedding), and i have to send and pick my lil bro for his swimming class, shop things for my sister (will be posted to egypt),and send my lil sister back to her hostel, plus visit my cousin dpt chicken pox at the hospital,so that's a long excuses i can make  not to attend the class..hurm..

jeles sebenarnye tgk kawan2 posted pic on fb betapa best nye mock OSCE arini..
jeles tgk diaorg bersungguh buat OSCE..
jeles tgk diaorg practise to each other..


tp xpe,insyaAllah lpas ni,i dun want to miss any weekend class..insyaALLah..
be in a medical line need u to sacrifice your feelings, times, everythings..lot of sacrifices just to pay just to be a doctor..yeah..moga Allah mudahkan urusan sy ini..moga Allah mudahkan jalan saya untuk membantu insan lain yg memerlukan..juga mudahkan urusan adik2 sy,kawan2 sy,dan semua org yg bekerja dlm medical line ini..ameen..


in few months time, our exam will be all OSCE..end of jun up to early july..
tp saya x cuak lagi..adoiiiii

depression during holiday

i was like really depressed right now..
i hate cars..
i hate accidents..
i hate cars!

well, its my secret actually..i hope i can keep it myself, as i hope i can control my anger and my emotional.but at last,i know i can't..i lost.. no one who wanna share it with me..just know how to blame,and blame and blame all to ME.

well yeah, last saturday, when i was on the way to my Saturday class, i involve in an accident.it was rainy and the road is quite slippery i guess. and at the selekoh before MEX highway,i can't control my car, and in sudden, i hit the divider.oh GOSH!i look back at my mirror and alhamdulillah, no cars behind me..and im still alive..i dun wish to stay in the hospital..alhamdulillah,everything is fine..and i hope my car is just fine..

but then, at the college, i looked back into my car,i was like,damn!teruk jugak accident nih..and i cant concentrate in the class, and i excuse at the half minutes..before that, i just texting my bro, inform him i involve in the accident..bcz i know,only my bro can help me..if i call my parents 1st, u can imagine. they will yelled out and surely i feel really bad. so,i hope my bro told my parents about the accident and yeah, he did it..

luckily at home,my dad already know the situation, and it took times for him to cool down..thats why i told my bro 1st..after my dad cooled down,baru kite leh tunjuk kete...sobz..gerun jugak bila baba tgk keadaan kete cmtu..but then,dia da tahu awal from my bro kan,so,ok la jgak..

then i asked my bro to repair the car, and totally it cost me rm900, excluding the painting..plus painting it was like rm1030..so, my parents decide to paint the car, and i paid half of it..

the next day when i was sending my little bro to swim class, i face another accident=(
which really2 make me feel down..

i didnt tell anybody i  hit aunty akma's car..it was another story when i used proton to send her daughter back to her house. the car's break was not really tahan the car, and the car slip down and hit the kancil's door.unlucky day for me AGAIN.feel really depressed. why me??

and i went out from my car and apologized her.aunty akma is nice,she just said ok and nothing..and i HOPE the story ends there. ada la sikit kemek rasanye at the pintu but for me its not obvious.i dunno for other's eye cmne kan..and i was still mcm kene renjatan elektrik, for the second time time,berturut2..i keep on thinking of the car and i dunno how to react towards it.

and today, after a week the incident happen, aunty akma called my mother and said her husband was quite angry with the car's condition and ask my mother to do what.i was like,err...can't she told me what she want instead of calling my mother and tell her what had happen?and my mom told me during lunch and really2 make my mood down.. luckily my dad was away and he's not with us during lunch. kalo x, am not sure i can eat or not..

i was,aaaa!!!!!!!feel like to masuk tanjung rambutan and to stay there,not to kacau sape2.or i wanna fly away go to poland,and stay with mira forever..or i want to go to anywhere that people didnt exist.i feel depressed!

i know i will be responsible for what have i done.but i dun't like the cakap2,the sindiran2, the so what ever small thingy yg menyakitkan hati and minda come across me..i will pay, eventhough i was short of money.i know, i have to be responsible..ive told aunty akma that i ter hit her car, and apologized her. it is easier if she directly told me back that her husband want me to baiki her car instead of telling my mom and later on my dad will know and later on i will AGAIN will be scolded. and the story of mimi hit 2 cars in 2 days will really hot.ever.forever.

really i dun have anybody to talk with.

finish ur school

salam and very good day..
yeah, alhamdulillah we finished our 'finishing school programme' dengan best nye with dinner at Pan Pasific KLIA on the Sunday's night..after gone through 3 days of so-called-workshop which really2 an eye-opener for me..really make me think of this life and my future..hewhewhew

we had grooming talk,etiquette, financial management talk from our own lecturers aka specialist, we had fun with mock interview by SPA, we had so much fun in thinking..
let me shared few things in here...

in SPA interview, they asked me about my future plan, meaning that after being a ho,what am gonna do in 10 years time?

ive been thinking of studying overseas you know..i mean, before ni memang la xnak study obesi coz am tooooo young (haha),but then after travel for quite sumtime, i feel like to stay just for a while in a foreign country preferably in the Uk or US..

i plan to own my nursery for elderly, to take care of them, i mean in term of their health especially the stroke patient, ADL ptn, alzheimer, and stuff..after seeing a friend of my motehr treat her father who had stroke in their house poorly, she didn't know who to refer to take care of the father..i mean, not all people know how to take care of the sick parents rite?if the parents are healthy and can take care of themselves, that's not the issue..now, dengan kerja seharian mencari nafkah as businesswoman and menjaga children lagi,plus she need to take care of another sick uncle, when is the proper time to take care of the stroke father? he'll be left alone poorly...seriously, she need help..

so, due to the incidence, i make up my mind to build a nursery for this elderly so that kesihatan mereka terjaga..its not like rumah org tua2,or sape2 anak busy boleh anta parents sini..it's not like that..i will make this nursery very calm and peaceful, mcm taman and menyegarkan, ada exercise therapy and stuff, ada pengajian rohani for elderly yg sihat, ada exercise routine yg best, ada food yg sihat, proggramme yg best..u know, sumthing yg buatkan this elderly happy..
and the most important factor i think bout this is because i wanna take care of my parents myself..by build this home,i hope i could take care of them whenever they had health problem or what not, and make me close with them whenever they need anything...

and to make sure i get my wish comes true, i wish to study?abroad like in the Uk or US,to gain experience on how they took care of their elderly..yeah,u know their system is very good..we can learn sumthing from them and bring and apply it here.. insyaAllah amin tolong doakan=)

well, in the meantime,i ve to complete my ho training for 2 years, and my mo training for 2-3 years..total is about 5 years right?really i want to be a good and safe doctor.. dint i want to be a specialist?

other than that, i oso want to be an o&g specialist..to fulfill my responsibility as a muslim dr, help other muslimah out there..but, maybe i won't take it seriously bout it as u know, to be the o&g specialist, u really have to korbankan most of your precious time with ur family towards ur patient..and my intention is to take care of my future family, my family and my parents...so,how r?

hurm...

so many thing running in my mind right now..

saving money..buying a house...life modestly...


but after thinking and really thinking, i realized that, pergantungan hidupku hanya pada Nya...i wont be success without him.i need him everytime, everywhere..what i have to do is making prayers, sentiasa berdoa, moga Allah permudahkan urusanku dunia and akhirat..moga Dia makbulkan permintaanku..moga Dia sentiasa berada di hati ini walau dimasa susah atau senang, because, HE's the only tempat kite bergantung, not to our husband/wife,bukan pd org tersayang,bukan pd org lain...even we lost everything, we still have Him..

mari jaga anak!

tips jaga anak/budak kecil from hotfm this morning..ekoran kes hilang budak yg makin berleluasa..

1.pesan kat anak guna jln yg berbeza2 untuk ke satu tmpat yg tetap. 
cth: guna jln yg berlainan stp hari untuk kesekolah
2.tetapkan satu tmpat selamat untuk anak jika berlaku apa2 yg x dikhendaki.
cth:rumah jiran yg anak boleh masuk kalau dia takut.make sure jiran sudah diberitahu terlebih dahulu and terus contact parents.
3. beritahu anak untuk gigit,cengkam,cakar atau apa shj yg dia boleh buat jika berjumpa dgn org yg x kenal@curiga
4. beritahu anak dia boleh sahaja buang air besar/kecil, xpayah tahan2 jika berlaku apa2.itu senjata anak yg natural
5. ajak jiran2 tebas lalang yg tinggi2 sekitar taman perumahan
6.xperlu tunggu 24jam untuk lapor kehilangan di balai polis..tapi baru 10 minit hilang,cari la dulu ye...
7.ambil gambar anak depan belakang,tepi..bukan yg lentok2..
cth: gambar arwah nurin yg lentok kat bahu, orang awam ingatkan dia cacat..xjumpa budak cacat mcmtu yg hilang..

ok itu sahaja..happy sharing!!!=p 

4th episode

it's raining heavily when the dutch board showed 1145 at night and 'a thousand years' by christina perri in my car, drove back from hospital serdang to my house in putrajaya..yeah, really 'feel' tonight..feel calm..

when suddenly, there was a police car dgn lampu biru pusing2 atas dia tu,and a few more cars berbaris kat tepi jalan in the dark,and when i drove further, nmpk sebuah kereta terbalik at the roadside.perhaps jalan licin,and kete tu bawak laju kat selekoh and bedebum!!

i was like, nak berhenti ke x?????i want to help!!!
thinking i was alone,and it's raining heavily, and it's already late at night, sy membatalkan niat itu.for the 3rd time :(
i feel bad.

the first time when i saw an accident in cyberjaya was on friday, i feel like to help the victim, but u know, jalan kat cyberjaya is lebar2 and panjang2 susah nak u-turn..and the accident melibatkan motorcyclist was at the seberang jalan..and i was wearing long skirts,and do u think i can melintasi jalan yg lebar itu untuk keseberang sana?with few guys i think baru balik solat jumaat berkerumun to help the motorcyclist..~malu la plak~

and i let it go..not the right time for me to help..x smpai masa lagi to take action..and i pasang niat,to help ppl involve in accident after that, in whatever circumstances..feel really bad when u know how to help but u can't take action for it..

second time was in the middle of night jugak, in putrajaya, when my housemates and i balik from our friend's solemnization..motorbike vs car..i asked my friend to stop,so that we can help the victim.accident tu betol2 baru berlaku..can see the victim terbaring atas jalan lagi..and the sad thing happen was, my friend refused to stop and help..alasan simple: takut medico legal...oh my god!

i was,errrrr..can't do anything walaupun da pujuk dia suh berhenti..and we drove back home..and the day after that, other friend cerita the same thing, but they stop and help the victim..
simple as ABC..airway, breathing and circulation..
head tilt chin up, remove anything that can obstruct the airways, and ask other people to call the ambulance..senang x??


da 3x i missed...
insyaAllah, i won't let myself to be free for the 4th episode..no more with izin Allah..

money =)

as the picture showed my mind right now.muehehehe...

i have few months more to finish my mbbs, then i'll be free..now am thinking of doing part time job during my 'holiday' time tu..kene top-up balik duit gi egypt&polend ari tu ma...walaupun lama lagi nak bulan 7,sy da pk skrg..advanced btol!

1. am thinking of tag along in a clinic.mesti ada klinik memerlukan pekerja kan?sy sedia berkhidmat!!at least, xde la luput segala ilmu, and skill bercakap dengan patient..(even skrg nak examine ptn lelaki pun i segan~aish~~)plus boleh dapat duit before masuk ho nanti..huhu


2. home tutor..weweewee~sekarang pun da tanye pak cik kesayangan, pak cik google tu..dekat area putrajaya ni, ada jugak org perlukan home tutor..am thinking about it..best jugak keje part time kan?pagi belajar kat spital,ptg ajar anak org kat umah dia..hurm..and dpt duit poket..sound interesting yeah!


3. tuition?menariks jugak..student tunggu je cikgu mai datang..tp,am i berkaki lebar enaugh to ajar anak2 org yg ramai ni belajar?


4. mesti punye saya akan tolong my mother set up her butik..and few stuff regarding business family...



see!!!am open minded sungguh bab2 ni..

aim: cari duit balik tuk top-up gi egypt& polend ritu..or am i planning to go some where else after this?hihihi
we'll see=)

jom saving!!

senang je=)

will upgrade myself bout this

pediatric

now is my week 3 of paeds posting..

feel missing sumthing..

this week 3 and 4 ill be in the ward..can't wait to meet the children everyday..

actually, just finished our BST with a young, good looking specialist..very energetic.. enthusiastic.. our first BST with him, and maybe the last,bcz he's working in private hospital..so he came in and taught us on how to present history and do physical examination plus squeezing our brain mcm perah santan with all the theory part when all of us just standing for 2 hours in the middle of the ward.heh~

well,alhamdulillah, we learn something..discuss on nephrotic and nephrtitic syndrome which is the bread and butter in pediatric plus did the abdomen and respiratory examination on the patient...nmpk sgt byk xtahu..go back and read ur books!

his last question before we separated was, do u really want to be a doctor?for what?

beaing a doctor is not about to kejar glamour, nak kejar duit yg banyak..to kejar pangkat or so what-ever..if u want to be kaya and billionaire, gi je masuk business ** (xingat pe dia kata)..if u nak glamour, g la masuk AF ke, american got talent ke, or so what ever to kejar glamor..u are in the wrong place if u want that..

being a doctor is passion to care..to other people..stp org ada niat tersendiri..me myself has my own point..polish ur niat everyday..insyaAllah, Allah will help u along the way..

i love this boy.

this is my fav adik in hospital serdang..tp kiteorg xleh jumpa dia sbnnrnye.takut infection.(nak masuk kene nyorok2)..we first met him when i was in sem 9, like 5-6 month ago...he had chronic lung disease, still waiting for somebody to donor him a pair of lung..so,he need that mask to supply him oxygen 24 hours..actually,he's a 9 yr old chinese innocent boy, MUST stay in the ward for a long time..hospital is his place now..not his home..yeah, his parents pun x brape nak dia sgt..he's taken care by his indonesian maid..smpaikan dia pandai la ckp melayu berbanding chinese..nama dia ADAM..nama chinese dia,xtahu la..

reflection to myself:

Allah bg kite free oxygen, tp adam terpakse pakai 24 hours oxygen mask sbb lung dia xdpt bantu dia bernafas..
Allah bg kite family,kawan2 yg baik,tp kite x appreciate..adam ada sorg je maid yg took care of him..plus the specialist yg rajin layan dia..parents and adik bradik x penah nmpk kat spital..
Allah bg kita rumah yg selesa,mknn yg sedap,tp kite jarang nak bersyukur..adam terpakse duk kat ward,hari2 colouring buku racer car dia..duk je dlm isolation room dia xleh keluar ke mana2 except cleaner dtg nak cucui bilik je...
Allah g kita selera mkn, kite plak mkn membazir2..adam?nak mkn xyah cerita panjang,sebab dia langsung xde selera makan..kalau kene suap nasi,tggu la beberapa jam baru dia nak telan nasi dlm mulut dia..

Allah bg kite nikmat,jarang kite syukuri kan?

adam terpakse duk hospital untuk naikkan berat dia..last time berat dia just 14kg (5 month ago, pic atas)...kite nye current weight?terlebih2 agaknya panggil penyakit dtg..phew~

this time, after 4-5 month being in the hospital,current weight is 19 kg.. congrats adam=)

my-handsome-for-ever-boyfriend

boyfriend i skrg ni rajen sgt2..terpakse rajen sbb chinese school dia skrg ske bg homework byk2..same as smart reader he went when he was 4 years old..but now,gentle sikit la sbb, balik rumah je, he will say: 

cikgu cakap mama kene buat homework luqman skali!hehe

miss him!

<3

syria

in our usrah meeting last weekend, i ve to present the current issues of syria..

do i care about syria?

do u care?

do we all care?

do u know the entire story about it?..i feel blessed when i have to search and get the information and shared it with my friends. this video is part of it..

also get some information from dr zainurrashid, the O&G specialist..

go and do some reading..

kite banyak sgt xtahu perkembangan semasa umat islam..

nabi kita berpesan: siapa yg tidak mengambil peduli hal org islam yg lain, maka bukan dari kalangan kami..

let us pray and do something for our brothers and sisters who fight for freedom from al-assad.

p/s: feel like to join mercy malaysia and fly over there to help the people

~Dr~

this morning when i woke up, i fell really energetic, and i feel like a very new of me and feel like really enjoyed myself yet i want to make others happy..so, i went out early direct to the hospital after catch my friend and masuk2 je emergency deptment (ED), head of department (HOD) ED tgah buat round and as usual medical student menyelinap masuk dlm round skali.kalau HOD tu nmpk,konpem kene sound. tau dah lambat wpon br kul 8* and there's not much patient dlm ED.ada sorg pak cik with chest pain resolve with morphine and GTN and stuff..sgt perlukan brush up IM wpun skrg posting paeds*


and as usual HO will give precise history of the ptn and what's management she/he had done to that fella. very good..i mean,sy sgt jealous. sy cemburu. the HOD and specialist asked her even more, and she answered like she knows everything about the ptn by heart. BY HEART.

and suddenly i ask myself, am i going to be a doctor?can i be a good doctor?can i be like that?or even worst?same?even better?which one?

can i present the history same like that dr give?blablabla je history taking dia.mantap.yeah,u know in emergency setting, u ve to be smart and cepat and tangkas to get the diagnosis. late to diagnose considered failure.can i meet up to that standard?

direct after the round, we had CME with the HOD, specialist, MO,Ho ,Ma,nurses..tajuk: traumatic brain injury (TBI). the same ho present cases and elaborate the details. the english is very good. sedap suara mendengar. dlm hati,da pk i shud take eng course time cuti nanti.when u confident to talk in english,there's no problem at all to answer or present what-so-ever* and again the HOD and specialist love to ask question, subsequently the MO yg cantek itu can answer all question like pup pup pup..direct.

yeah, i wonder. it's emergency department. but there's no male MO. yg ada 2 female MOs, really beautiful and smart. brain smart.  selalunye la kan,the male will conquer posting tough2 mcmni..tough posting for tough ppl la kan? meaning to say, beautiful lady also can do the tough2 thingy..hehe


seriously i inspired to be like them.i feel nervous inside, but i know, im grateful coz am still a student, still ve time to dig the knowledge, still can do mistake, ve time to be brainy student, sharpen my skills, rajen do ward works, help MAs and stuff..yg penting, ada kesedaran to belajar cik mimi oi!!!



p/s: oh how much i miss poland and egypt..the holiday mode masih berbasi lagi nih..get out!!study mode on!

 really miss them

sila sedar diri anda tidak berada di sini.

let's practice it!

SEBELUM tidur, Rasulullah SAW pernah berpesan kepada Saidatina Aisyah :

“Ya Aisyah, jangan engkau tidur, sebelum melakukan 4 perkara iaitu :

Khatam Al Qur’an

Membuatkan para nabi memberi syafaat kepadamu di hari akhirat

Membuatkan para muslim meredhai kamu

Melaksanakan ibadat haji dan umrah.

Bertanya Aisyah :

“Ya Rasulullah, bagaimanakah aku dapat melaksanakan 4 perkara dalam satu masa?”

Rasulullah tersenyum sambil bersabda :

“Jika engkau tidur bacalah Surah Al -Ikhlas 3 kali, (maka ia seolah-olah kau mengkhatamkan Al Qur’an). Dan Bacalah selawat untukKu dan para nabi sebelumku, (maka kami semua akan memberi syafaat kpdmu di hari kiamat). Dan Beristighfarlah untuk para muslimin (maka mereka semua akan meredhai kamu). Dan perbanyakkanlah bertasbih, bertahmid, bertahlil, dan bertakbir (maka ia seolah-olah kamu telah melaksanakan ibadah haji dan umrah)”

- MAFHUM DARI HADIS-

anak itu

alhamdulillah..
am done with one week posting in NICU..neonatal intensive care unit, where all the-less-than-28 days baby will be there to be treated until they bcme healthy..and will be continue with emergency and wards..

reflection?
yeah, so many things i learned from this 1 week precious moment.
NICU means, semua budak yg sgt2 ill, yg x berdaya, yang ada defect anomaly, cacat dimana2 dan memerlukan perhatian rapi ditempatkan. u know what? i met 2 mothers yg anak dia bakal dilahirkan 'syndromic' aka 'tidak normal' and they knew it dari dlm kandungan lagi, but they still want the baby.why? yeah, LOVE. tu baru 2 mothers,blom yg lain lg...

and now, wlaupun anak mereka syndromic and have to stay in the NICU for a quite long time, mereka redha..time nak ambil history mereka, thay look tabah, and x semena2 i let my tears fall down..seriously MOTHERs are the brave and cool person ever. may Allah bless them until jannah..

bcs of LOVE, they care to us..they care to the baby...kalau kite berada di tempat mereka, will we do the same?

bayi ibarat kain putih bersih, dimana ibu bapa yg bertanggungjawab mencorakkan kain itu. im not really good in islamic versus to qoute anything from the Quran, but i know bayi or kanak2 adalah insan yg tidak berdosa, yg islam , yg suci dan lebih baik dr kita..and we don't have the right to judge them...

i remembered when i was in German, Tamam @ our fellow friends from Palestin, bila dia jumpa a group of kanak2, he will do a sign like, sumthing special and the kanak2 will smile and do the same to him like they knew each other and they were connected for so many years!when i asked him,do u really know them?he simply said, i don't,but children are muslem! we r the same=)

me,mira, wani,my Mira and Tamam depan one of the castle in Berlin. Tamam is still single who loves children and like them a lot. Like,ada connection between them,secretive.

when i said, we don't have the right to judge them, i fell really angry and SAD.yeah, am SAD when there's some ppl yg menghebahkan kadar kenaikan anak haram or so whatever tajuk berkenaan anak luar nikah itu. sangat menunjukkan ketidakpuashatian dia@mereka dlm isu ni..apa salah anak haram itu??i don't feel right. anak luar nikah sounds firm sikit..salah ke jadi anak luar nikah?mereka minta jadi begitu ke?kenapa ada jgak org x puas hati??i think u xpuas hati pada salah org..argh!i don't like you!ever!


and can u imagine perasaan budak2 ni bila baca berita or status yg u tulis in any news,fb or twitter pasal increase in anak luar nikah ni?penah pk x?agak2 kalau u berada kat tmpat dorg,what will u feel?great??mcmtu?


so what with the number yg increasing?nak salahkan budak2 tu?kenapa x salahkan si pelaku?remaja2 yg perlakuan di luar batasan Islam?atau prmpuan2 yg dianiaya?atau prmpuan yg rela diperlaku?oh yeah,perempuan sahaja ke perlu dipersalahkan?kalau xde lelaki,xkan jadik kan?lelaki as imam,mana responsibility to jaga maruah perempuan muslim?kenapa nak pandang senget sebelah mata dgn budak2 ni?WHAT's UR RIGHT TO DO THAT?

tolonglah..think out of the box..kalau sekadar nak hebah mende mcmtu,without the solution,baik xyah nak kecoh.lagi baik gi amik anak2 tu,bela and jaga meraka,u will be paid by Allah insyaAllah..anak2 tu consider anak yatim, suci bersih, baru nak mengenl dunia..if u feel responsible, u won't kutuk2 anak2 ni..pls la..seriously, i hate u did that.

i don't have much money to buy toys for my beloved Hakim, but a picture of this may make him happy=)

p/s: sorry..towards the end, jadik emo plak...but am really emo kalo cte bab ni...sekian...

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wasiat Rasullah saw kpd Ali :

"Ya Ali! Perbanyakkanlah membaca Surah Yassin, kerana dalam membacanya itu terdapat sepuluh macam keberkatan. 

Tidak ada orang yang membacanya waktu lapar atau puasa melainkan kenyang.

Haus kecuali hilang hausnya. 

Tidak memiliki pakaian melainkan ia akan memperolehi pakaian. 

Merasa takut kecuali datang rasa aman. 

Di penjarakan melainkan ia akan keluar dari penjara. 

Bujang melainkan ia akan berkahwin.

Sewaktu musafir matanya menjadi terang dalam perjalanan.

Tidak membacanya orang yang kehilangan sesuatu benda melainkan mendapatkannya kembali.

Tidak dibacakan ia ke atas orang yang akan hampir ajalnya melainkan diringankan baginya.

Barangsiapa yang membacanya di waktu subuh nescaya ia akan aman sehingga petang, dan barangsiapa yang membacanya di waktu petang nescaya ia akan berada di dalam keadaan aman sehinggalah waktu pagi."

(Hadis Riwayat At-Tirmidzi dan An-Nasa'i)

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if u are a gentleman, do not approach her! approach her father!!

PEOPLE are made to be Loved,
THINGS are made to be Used,
BUT
The problem with the World is that
PEOPLE are being Used here,
& THINGS are being Loved :/

stick it in ur mind

true

bismillah..sem 10..

i wish to stop the time.

pls..


at least for few hours..why?
coz tomorrow, i will start my sem 10..my final sem ever as a student, insyaAllah..am scared..few weeks of holidays rasa mcm  x cukup..hukz

last friday, we had our sem 10 briefing..sume lecturers pesan...u just have 4 months to upgrade urself before the real final pro 3 and before u be a housemen.*scary part*

4 month only mimi...then u'll be free for dew month and will send to the hospital u want..4 month is like,sgt sekejap..4 month to be called as medical student..4 month only to recap everything..4 month to sacrifice ur weekend..4 month only mimi!!

yeah, i can do it!!
toksah leleh la

rindu

my first time watching his youtube was few weeks ago, sumbody post it in the facebook.
he makes me cry. really. he is sumthing. new revolution for youth generation.

i love this one...anak asset ke syurga or neraka?

and my second time is just now. tv al-hijrah channel 114...he talks about our beloved Rasullah saw...straight to the heart..make me miss my beloved one...

Allah cakap kita akan duduk dengan org yg kita cinta...
siapa yg kita cintai sekarang?

mari kita belajar cinta nabi..
in every aspect of life, insyallah ada sunnah baginda yg boleh kita ikuti,teladani...

oh yeah, last Sunday my sisters and i went to dewan besar MPS to gather and celebrate our beloved muhammad's birthday, maulidurrasul..dekat banner tepi jalan tulis 8 am,so i went there earlier hope to get the sit in front and parking x susah la kan..unfortunately, ramai nye org yg dtg mai nak sambut maulidrasul..alhamdulillah...=)

part yg x bestnye, rpa2 nya, ada undang johol,tampin,mb n9, datin datuk,sultan permaisuri and so who ever were invited there, and we have to wait for more than 1 hour to hear the ceramah khas..ok, 1st time jumpa permaisuri (isteri sultan mukhriz)..i thought our permaisuri wearing full hijab like our mantan queen, our permaisuri najihah@aishah (if im not mistaken. sbb dulu time sekolah ada pic queen with full hijab sungguh cantik)...

what ever it is, i penat la nak tunggu lama2 untuk upacara khas tuk depa ni...depa senang je dtg dgn driver bawak masuk parking depan dewan pukul 9.45am,and abes ceramah area 11am,terus gi dewan santapan and terus balik...i ni datang awal, parking jauhhhhh plak tu..sob2..ye la,1st time nak merasa kat dewan mps kan..xtau plak ada jemputan org2 besar gitu..kalau tau,i kawen je ngan anak sultan,leh dtg lambat,save masa i tau..hehe~berangan~


k,itu hanye picisan..hehe

the best part is, of course the main programme on that day..ceramah khas maulidurrasul by ustaz fuad..even i didn't really understand certain arabic word he used, but alhamdulillah, i get sumthing from the talk. feel like we really close to our main creature Allah taala and beloved Muhammad saw...

plus the dewan bergema when kita berselawat bersama2, rasa gegar dewan,gegar jiwa,rasa sayaaang sgt kat nabi..rindu.


p/s: smbil dengar lagu ya rasullah from raihan..feeling habes~