new year,new spirit

good bye 2011...

Tahun 2012 tetap sama seperti 2011 selagi cara kita berfikir seperti 2011. Tak perlu tunggu tahun baru untuk buat perubahan. Kita boleh ubah diri kita Bila bila masa dalam masa satu saat dengan membuat pilihan yang betul setiap saat. Orang yang inginkan kehidupan berbeza tetapi tabiat tetap sama seperti menunggu kucing bertanduk. Banyak orang tertipu yang mengharapkan dunia luar berubah untuk mengubah kehidupan hidup mereka tanpa menyedari diri mereka harus berubah untuk hidup mereka berubah. Jom ubah diri sendiri untuk mengubah kehidupan mulai esuk 1 jan 2012~ prof Dr Muhaya~

2011 gimme a lot of kenangan..indah,manis,pahit,everything..mix it all together, hopefully to shape me being a strong lady facing a new chapter of life..ho yeah! 






2012..bismillah..

ALLAH Opens Millions Of Flowers

WiThouT Forcing The Buds,

IT Reminds Us Not To Force Anything ,

Things Happen In The Right Time!!!

So Wait ALLAH want to give best and best for you at correct time,

that's the reason still you not received :)

ALLAH IS BEST PLANNER FOR EVERYTHING..

pre-exam

salam..
dah lama x update..
bukan apa..sibuk je manjang..
bukan sibuk dgn buku pun act..sob2..sibuk dgn hal lain..

blom exam da pk jauh utk post-exam.hehe..well,it gives me high spirit to study tho..my mind keep on thinking of study-ing, holiday-ing & business-ing..everything comes together when i decided to go to _ _ _ _ _ &  P_ _ _ _ _  last few weeks..i keep on thinking how i can get much money in order to fulfill my aim...at the same time, my mind has to keep on moving on studying!!!

insyaAllah, i will study hard! i promise!!!i must study betol2 so that, shud be no problem to visit 2 places post-exam nnt..

ok,jom kite plan nak study baik2 mimi...
1. kene study group..alhamdullilah, da stat balik..5 years of learning medicine, everything should be combined together, insyaAllah my frens will help me..walaupun byk kene study,kite jgn gabra k mimi..cool je
2.buat latihan byk2..yeah, buku senior bagi last yr,byk lagi x abes buat..hoho..nak kene denda mimi nih
3. kurangkan projek dlm tenet ni..i think, cukup2 la tu sy mencari product2 yg best tuk dipasarkan..hehe..insyaAllah,pe yg ada,boleh menampung..good plan !!!!
(ok,janji kene kurangkan layari web2 lagi)
4. exam lagi brape hari je lagi!!!!!aaaa!!!!!!!!!!kdg2 rasa cuak,study lebih..bila pnat tu,abes bukak sume tenet balik~


exam sy 6hb, jumaat minggu depan..ye, JUMAAT MINGGU DEPAN!!!!hoho..isnin,selasa,and rabu pun exam..khamis result!!!
jumaat, sayonara msia=)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))


oh,can't wait to menanggung perasaan ini..oh allah, help me go through this easily... ameen

pasport hilang??

assalamualaikum and a very good sunny & rainy day...sejuk je rasa hati..:)

well, as the topic stated, i would like to share my experience regarding my original international passport, YG DAH HILANG!!!!huaaaaa.....well, we (my sis & i ) had planned sumthing over the winter break , as for me it's my post-pro-exam-relieve break, so pasport tu mcm benda besar gak la...
ok,malas nak menceceh, kite terus cerita cmne kalo pasport hilang kay!

basically, we have to go to this 3 places
1. jabatan imigresen
2. balai polis.
3. pesuruhjaya tinggi sumpah
(estimated time boleh habis keje if di putajaya lg pendek rasanya dari tmpat lain,sbb sume tmpat pun dkat2 jgak la)

ok, 1st is jabatan imigeresan..jgn cuak2 kay..sy just pegi di putrajaya, sbb sy tahu,semua perkara yg dibuat kat sini,sume cepat,efficient, dan sgt best!!!hehe...seriously, smpai sy ckp kat pegawai tu, kenapa mcm ramai je org kat sini nak apply2 sume?dia ckp,tu la,semua org nak dtg putrajaya,even dr sabah swak, sbb nak cpat siap pasport and so whatever keje depa la..dia siap kol yg negeri2 punye supaya xyah la promot putrajaya lagi,burden keje depa makin byk woo...sian org putrajaya..huhu

and mind that i will get my new pasport within a week..insyaAllah..if luar kawasan putrajya,maybe within a month..so,pandai2 la ye..

dlm net tulis, pejabat imigresen kat precint 15, carik punye carik,dngan seorg bantuan org tepi jalan kaki,rpe2nye, bangunan dia kat precint 14, kat area Mydin tu..aiseyman...dekat2 je mcm xde pemisah precint2 ni..

pas jumpa dgn officer and btau nak wat permohonan pasport yg dah hilang, dia akan bagi borang..ha,jgn lupa sediakan 2 salinan IC, 2 salinan surat beranak, 2 pic pasport belakang dia biru okay+mst sama. ok,nanti dia akan ckp suh gi balai polis tuk wat laporan kehilangan..well, hanya org yg still valid sahaja yg perlu buat laporan polis..sape 2 da abis bertahun2 tu,kalo hilang, xyah la wat laporan polis..mcm sy nye, valid smpai 2012, ie next yr...so,kene la buat laporan polis..untuk terminate pasport yg hilang tu..

ok,next am heading to balai polis precint 9, dekat ngan umah je..aman je balai polis tu mcm xde org..terus masuk,terus wat laporan terus keluar, terus heading to precint 2 bangunan mahkamah persekutuan..oh yeah, kene bayar rm4 untuk report polis tu ye cik puan2 sekalian...

ok,ni 1st time smpai kat bangunan 'Palace of Justice' Putrajaya ni..gempak nye bangunan depa mang xleh ckp la kan..smpai satu bas behenti tepi tu,pelancong sume turun amik pic luar dia..huhu..ok,aim nak dapatkan cop & tandatangan makcik pesuruhjaya sumpah tu..jmp kakak-agak-sombong kat kaunter depan tu ckp,naik tingkat 3, byr rm4 then tingkat 2 dapatkan cop..sy mintak ulang,siap bg arahan mcm sy ni polis okayy...esemen,rileks la kak...cuak i..

yg lama nye time nak tggu dptkan cop..even i fall asleep for 45 min to one hour waiting..huahuahua...nyenyak n best..hehe..pas da dpt cop sume,and isi borang2 dr pjabat imigresen tadi, kite kene gi pjbat imigresen balik k..gaya mcm main games la plak..make sure everything settle. photostate report polis tu,sbb dia pun nak 2..ha,complete sudah...

jmp balik ngan pegawai imigresen..and my works done at almost 12.30pm..take half of my day jgak nak settle mende ni..

i felt sorry for those yg i jmp from sabah td..depa satu family naik bas nak dtg putrajya from klang,nak settlekan paport, tp IC x buat lg,anak2 dia punye surat beranak x complete..mcm2 hal..sian dia..mintak tumpang org nak gi pejabat pendaftaran negara plak nak wat temporary IC..huhu..y elor, yg available mungkin teksi kot untuk kemana2, tp mahal lor charge kat sini =(

so,mari kita bersyukur mempunyai kenderaan yg baik okay!

ok,pic xde kene mengena dgn post.cuma,i pun tido mcm baby ni..nyenyak sokmo=p

ni Palace Of Justice..Istana Kehakiman you all..gerum i masuk istana ni

siap kene scan kat bawah tu sblm dpt masuk..and design dlm istana ni,mmg the bomb la kan

ni pun pic xde kene mengena gak.hehe..si luqman ni,moncong semacam je kalo kite ajak dia solat..hehe

im 23 yo today

alhamdulillah, masih diberi nikmat usia dari Allah untuk meneruskan hidup yg masih bersisa..as usual, am alone in my room, celebrating my birthday with my favourite kuih lidah buaya and a bottle of ribena..got few messges from  those most important people in my life..tq Allah 4 sending me these people..

but yeah, this year, i didn't get the phone call from someone, who will called me most of every year since i was small to wish me hb..yeah, bit conflict here and there..misunderstanding and miss everything..i wish i could run away right now, join the marathon competition or what not anything that can distract me from this small arguments. it's small but it's like pus you know..very small when we see at the surface, but after wound debridement, u won't believe those puss yg accumulate dlm tu..but tq for the short message..

well,still am alone in this world..i feel am alone like what ive been feeling few months back..it hurts me again and again..why r?

perhaps this is the balasan for me , a reminder mungkin sbb sy selalu lalai?

oh almighty god,please help me, bless me, bless my family and my friends so that we can together happily living in this world, and together making pahala to enter ur jannah..


-am old already ;(`

bosan kene marah

do u know the feel of bosan?bukan bosan  xtau buat keje,x buat apa2..tp bosan bila kene marah...all the same thing again and again..

why people like to use their emotion instead of rationalism?
im tired of this=(


pls..get away all your anger out from me..i don't like people shouting. i don't like people mad.
and sy x suka org pemarah.

ni lain topik..just went to meet dentist today, tp tgk jadual kat pintu,kul 2 pm onward, xleh masuk..sume appointment..bosan~..kalo kat kk ampangan,dia bg je nak check sbb x ramai ptn..hurm..


so,esok pg2 nak jd org prtama jmp dentist..huhu~

(^_^)

japan

i was 'berkhalwat' ie mengasingkan diri x balik umah sban this week..
(padahal ari tu cuti selasa smpai khamis da duk umah).so weekend,stay putrajaya je..mengenangkan exam x lama lg..mimi WAJIB rajin blaja ok, *mode cube mendisiplinkan diri*

well,disiplin x disiplin,terbukak juga web air asia..yow, rege gi jepun ngah murah!!!tgh promo g balik rm300 jer x termasuk tax..termasuk tax adela dlm rm500..*ok,berangan sudah nak gi jepun plak*

pastu cube search pe yg yg patut nk gi jepun..at last, rasanye kakiku xkan jejak jepun kot..

pertama: masalah bahasa..where japanese sgt2 la susah communicate in english.even kalo sesat pun,ssh nak cari jln balik,ssh nak ckp dgn org
kedua: mahal..brg2 kat sana sume mahal..even nak stay kat hotel murah pun, sama mcm hotel VIP kat msia
ketiga: ssh cari mknn halal..

mcm best je pki kimono duk tepi kolam hirup udara segar...~let be dreamers!!!!~

in conclusion, kalo gi jepun,maybe tggu peluang keemasan dtg..kawen-husben blaja kat jepun ke-or sy smbung kat jepun ke (itu mustahil ye sbb msia xanta medicine ke jepun)- or ada sape2 nak bg free all in and out percutian ke jepun,at least seminggu pun ok la kan..hik2..

ok,da bis berangan..

sila sambung study balik ye cik syamimi..:D

sunnaton

few weeks ago, my groupmate uder Prof Latiff supervision had done something to the young boys!!!

bersunat!!hihi

before melakukan aktiviti berkhatan tu, prof da remind us..kerja bersunat ini bukan suatu kerja main2, biasa2 saja, atau untuk mengisi masa lapang sabtu kami..tetapi, kene ingat, as a muslim doctor to be, our niat has to be straight to Allah..we did it as a kebjikan to our muslim society..muslim boys has to be cleaned in order to perform the prayers..we will cleaned the part, which smegma (debris) byk terkumpul and cut it out..so,insyaAllah the young boys can perform the solah w/out kotoran lg..hingga ke dewasa...

so,mcm biasa jugak, sblm majlis berkhatan berlangsung, ada acara nasyid, kompang2, bersiram bagai..semua nmpk hepy jer..

this is the guys team..poyo jerk..

oh yeah,that indian boy ni baru 1 st time menyunatkan org..well,best juga 'bekerja' dgn dia nih

cool girl's team..

this is my housemate..

nak letak pic bersunat mcm x appropiate plak..hehe..csecret and confodential...byk pengalaman menyunatkan org ni..

'xnak kawan dr!!!'

aksi tendang menendang

aksi kejar mengejar

infectious screaming (sorg menjerit,sume nak jerit)

meronta2

sume nye dlm ingatan..ni dah kali ke berapa acara sunat ni kiteorg buat, and mcm2 ragam dah jumpe..seronok!!!

the best part is when the parents really appreciate ur works and say thank you, and hug u..

we feel like,argh,bestnye!!!

well,am looking forward..no,am not going to be a surgeon..hehe...

still thinking of my future..=)

mummy & i chocolate's day

today is holiday..awal Muharam..yet we already met the new year=)

moga thn ni kite lebih bersemangat menghadapi cabaran thn baru..

hasil nye puan2 dan tuan2 sekalian...byk taww dpt...yg penting SEDAP!!

guna oil base ye..bukan water base..nnt coklat x jadik

best main colour2...kalo luqman join,mst dia ske...hehe

ok,pasni boleh amik tempahan..sape2 nak rder choclate,meh bg nama kay!!=)

Aidiladha di CUCMS & BBQ at prof Latiff's

my lecturers were imagine that they want to produce Muslim's drs who are not totally like ulat buku punye product..so they create the silibus in CUCMS, so that we can socialize, involve in activity bersama, and at the same time,strive for excellent in our studies..here are small part of it..we had more and more activities together with the lecturers..yeah, we love our lecturers soooo much!!!can wait to become 'somene' like them in the future..insyaAllah...

ske tgk depa melapah 3 ekor lembu!!

prof Latiff pun join the spirit=)

kami wakil gadis2 hanya mampu mnjadi supporter blakang pentas.hehe

with Ust Hasanuddin, the cool ustaz ever..he organized this Aidiladha progmme in our college

juga support tuk kenduri bihun sup daging

the right side is my anesthetist,the calm and charm prof Ikram, 

the left one is Ust Hasanuddin, our Tafseer's teacher

budak laki mkn sup mcm xpenah mkn sup je

kami yg duk hirup sup sedap daging korban

Next is our 'end of posting' celebration. berakhir sudah posting IM yg mencabar dan sgt best ini <3

so,we decided to mkn2 kat umah prof Latiff...mcm2 ada

the girls preparing for BBQ

and the coleslaw was super delicious!!!add the green apple into it

and this is our big group..with prof Latif at the back in her Yellow Bersih's shirt..hehe

final week of IM sem 9

well today, it's quite a big day for me..normally, on tuesday and thursday we will have BST with our prof Rasyid..SCARY..itu mmg sinonim dgn prof R ni..
actually,kiteorg bukan takut as in takut sbb dia grg x tentu hala so whatever..tp scary sbb cara dia mengajar tu,sgt menusuk jiwa..'mkn dlm beb'...cmtu la org ckp..

hari ni kiteorg 'kene' lg dgn dia.. kene brain wash..his style of teaching senang je..dia xkan paksa, or tunjuk student suh amik history taking or do physical examination on patient..tp he'will wait until the student respond to his question..

dia xkisah nak ulang soalan dia banyak kali..'sape nak examine patient ni,dipersilakan'..dia akan tggu smpai ada student volunteer..kiteorg yg ada dlm 12 org ni,mmg nak buat,tp TAKOT!!depan patient,prof R mmg baik la kan..sekali masuk bilik untuk discussion, 'U ARE NOT THINKING IN WHAT YOU ARE DOING!'oh my..abes suda..

kali ni,ptn present with ecchymosis..ada bleeding disorder..very rare in msia..this poor girl (25 years old,single plak tu) have a very huge ecchymoses on her face..plus she got menorrhagia..and a case like this, da mmg jarang jumpe kat Msia yg aman damai ni,mmg la kiteorg terkial2 nak jwb..prof,prof..prof tau x,suara sy ni mcm xleh nak keluar kalo klas ngan prof..sy kecut perut...sobz

well, this is our last bst with him..IM in sem 9 is over..tp prof bg peringatan td..u won't become a good doctor if u just do whatever ppl ask u to do routinely..u have to THINK!!and an excellent dr have reason ie evidence based medicine in whatever he/she do ..so,see u next sem..IM sem 10..am dead...

10 am to 12.30pm with him is like a very short period of time..luckily ive settled my patient pagi2 lagi..bukan pe..prof ni ske je nak pilih mana2 ptn,kalo terkena ptn kite,abes sudah..huhu..tp kalo da well prepared, redha je la kan..hihi

next class with dr shuhaila aka dr shu..putrajaya hospital plak at 2pm..dr ni lembut and baik sikit..and dia ske bg smngat and mmg ajar how to be a good housemen aka dr...so,seronok tu dtg balik walaupun rasa 'kering' lpas klas prof R td..abes klas dr shu,spatutnye ada next class kul 5pm dgn dr zul,dr paling sempoi from specialiat senawang hospital..tp kiteorg escape for the 1st time..hehe

sbb nye??

kiteorg nak marinate ayam!!mlm ni BBQ!!end of posting gathering,kiteoeg panggil all lecturers yg aja IM ni,mkn sama2,BBQ di umah proff Latiff..tp prof R x dpt dtg,so sad..wpon dia grg,kiteorg tahu kiteorg byk blaja in his class..


so,am hoping for the best...really i want to be a safe good doctor..i want to help ppl get rid of their problem and disease and go back to their family...oh Allah,pls lead and help me along this way...amin...

.my life.

sumtimes in life, u didn't always feel good..

hidup bak roda,kjap kat atas,kjap turun bwh..

well, i feel that too..

and now my roda i feel it's di bwh..

that's what i feel by the way..

am not feel happy.

im just a normal girl..

with so many big dreams..

yeah i know, am a daughter to my parents..am also a student..am also a human being..

i know i've a responsibility as a daughter, student, human..

but pls treat me as a normal human being!

a human that have feelings and want her right!!

sy bukan seorang manusia yg hidup untuk memuaskan hati pihak2 lain..

sy x mampu untuk hidup untuk dinilai pada mata manusia

sy x mampu  hidup utk org 'melihat' sy

sy x suka itu

sy penat untuk hidup pada nilaian manusia..

serius,penat melayan karenah manusia..

and i feel that's very unfair u did to me..

our thought is different..

i can't fullfill ur demand..

u also can't fulfill my demand..

bcoz we have opposite thought..

u always think about people...

which i didn't care much...

but i did care my feelings..

u didn't care my feelings..

and it hurts..

kenapa ye things like this happen to me?

when i think deep, it's life actually...

i ve to accept that..

when i know it's going to be 'chronic'

i don't have any prevention for this..

but what i know:

pergantungan hanya pada dia yg satu..

bukan pada tiang yg boleh bengkok..

bukan pada manusia yg tak tetap hatinye..

...Allah...

may Allah ease my way, my life..i need my life..
my life is short..
am not going to waste a SINGLE single of it..

111111

today,i mean this morning, oh its FRIDAY!!!'

beautiful date huh?

td pas abes klas around 7 pm at hosp serdang, we got a news that our batch mate, zaizul's wife baru bersalin seorg baby gugurl..syukur alhamdulillah, normal delivery, no complication..bestnye, bersalin kat hspital yg sama..so,dr tingkat 7 tu,kami turun tangge ke ward 5, sempat la jmp istri dia (she's a future teacher) and the cute baby..1st time jmp istri zaizul sbnarnye, time depa kawen dulu, sorg kat ganu,sorg kat johor,xdan nak pi 2,2..

so,one of the conversation is

A: ala akak,arini 10 hb 11, kalo smpat tahan,cantek dah bersalin esok aka 111111
H (zazizul's wife): nak wat cmna..da x tahan sgt sakit dia..hehe..and bla2..cte sal bersalin sume

act,no point pun cte ni..saje berkongsi gembira..most of the guys in our college has been married..whoaahhh..alhamdulillah..and 3 of them da dpt anak pun thn ni..kirenye,anak zaizul yg ke 3..siap diaorg da discuss2 nak kawen kan anak2 masing2..aish..jauh bebenor fikirannye..

ttbe rasa nak kawen..hehe..maybe sbb arini 111111?
ngarut je..
k la...nyte everyone!!c ya tomorrow!!

salam~

morning's quote for today =)

Kita tidak akan rasa bahagia jika kita tidak berkongsi apa yang kita ada dengan orang lain. Hari ini jom kongsi apa sahaja yang bermanafaat dengan orang lain. niat memberi bukan menerima dan tanya ' bagaimana saya boleh beri' buka apa saya boleh dapat. Jom semua pekerja jangan berkira tulang urat kita berikan yang termampu mungkin untuk mendapat tuaian besar di akhirat nanti..
~ Prof Dr Muhaya~

think

sejak masuk IM ni, most of the word that come out from our lecturers are THINK!

THINK!!!

THINK!!!!

and tonyte, after settling everyting ie reading books, abes dah bab DM, i feel nak muntah..nauseated..a lot of thing masuk dlm pale..everything...from study life..personal life..family component....future thinking...everything la masuk or lintas or so what ever dlm pale ni...

i need to do something...mimi,pls focus..pls..

eiduladha 1432

assalamualaikum...

a very happy and delightful day..

hari raya aidiladha yg disambut pada 10,11,12 and 13 zulhijjah setiap thn, alhamdulillah, masih berkesempatan umtuk kite sambut pada thn ini..masih dpt merasai kemanisan silaturrahim antara keluarga, jiran tetangga dan sanak saudara..masih dpt merasai dan memperingati kisah silam kasih syg demi Allah nabi ibrahim, dan isteri dan juga nabi ismail..keikhlasan dari pengorbanan yg luar biasa...kemahuan Allah menjadi puncaknya...

it can be our reflection, isn't it?
once u let go your attachment (u name it, ur love one,ur fav things, ur everything) just for Allah, what u love is given back to u--> now in purer, a better form..
so let us asked ourselves in these beautiful days of sacrifice, which attachments do we need to slaughter?

disunatkan bertakbir irama merdu itu 3 hari berturut2..i feel love..i can't wait to be one of the guest in Meqah..when is it?im praying for it..i miss it..

yesterday when i watched takbir raya kat tv, i feel touched with the meaning..so here,am attached in my blog so i won't forget the beautiful meaning inside it.. hopefully, when we bertakbir, we feel also the meaning of it..

love is sacrifice..

sacrifice u love most..
be it everything..
mainly for Allah..

kuah kacang koww

am proud today=))))

mummy asked me to buat kuah kacang for takbir raya mlm ni..and dengan penuh semangat and kededikasian yg tggi,sy berjaya buat kuah kacang!!!(of course ibu da btau brg2 apa nak guna.simple je rpenye)


tp  ibu komen,kuah kacang i x kaw..xpe2,kite tulis kat blog jgn bagi lupa resipi okay..next time boleh buat kaw2..

nama diberi: Kuah Kacang Mim's Kaw (skrg xkaww la,tp next time kite buat la bg kaww okey)

1. tumbuk bawang merah, bawang putih, udang kering, halia and sedikit belacan..
2. next, tumis, and da garing, masukkan cili yg da mesin..and cili ni penting untuk bg kaler merah dia cantik you....
3. next, dah kering garing cili, masukkan air asam jawa sikit..mcm nak masak asam,tp jgn byk sgt..and tmbah air lagi bg setengah periuk..
4. lastly, baru masukkan kacang yg i da mesin awal2 tadi ye puan2..jgn da siap semua,kacang x mesin plak.itu kelakar..
5.taraa!!!siap!!

ok,actually,i know nape kuah kacang i x kaw..sbb i lupa masuk halia..hihi..da masuk air asam jawa,baru i teringat halia..isk2..naseb la ibu x tau.haha..itu sangat mak nenek ye syamimi..semangat tinggi bebenau nak masaknye...

ok,jom buat trifle plak..and puding jagung...

p/s: can't wait the rombongan dtg buat takbir kat rumah tonyte=)

long day of being screwed

hopefully, yesterday will be a history that i won't forget..of course i wont forget this sampai bila2

generally, we had BST with Prof Rasyid, then i have to present case with Dr Shuhaila, in the evening we BST again with Dr Zul and at nigth we have class again with our beloved dedicated Dr Rafizi..

and early in the morning, i went to the hospital with a weak body, feverish and cough yg x baik2..and as usual, early morning, we had to update our patient.

the sad thing is, bila BST tu, we had to discuss with Prof Rasyid, and his stail of teaching really make me wanna fainting (not me only,tp sume mmg cuak pun dgn dr sorang ni).hukz..and we were discussing on a patient who had fever for 1 week. discuss punye discuss, he had leptospirosis. (be careful to those yg suke jungle trekking, mandi air terjun.if u had fever a week or a month after that, cpat2 jmp dr)..the discussion is not main thing about leptospira (yeah,din beramboi was died sbb leptospira),we have to expand the diagnosis..and we did discuss about malaria, and dengue fever..

and this Prof nye stail teaching seriuosly scary..yeah, it's good actually bcz he urge us to THINK!!

I WANT TO PRODUCE THINKING DOCTORS , NOT THE FOLLOWERS!!!(ayat dia ske ckp)

I think i should give u ANMUM so that semua sel2 otak berhubung 

(ni satu iklan yg dia ske sgt quote dlm klas.hehe)

but then, with my weak condition, i didn't really prepared myself..im sooo dead..hukz..i didn't blame myself of being weak physically, but weak in knowledge..i feel lose..

and he kept looking at me and asked question, siap jegil2 mata,waaaa!!!!

i was seriously drowning..but alhamdullilah, we learn a lot..semua org mmg takut nak masuk klas dia,tp bila dlm klas tu,u know u will get sumthing..i have to revise back,ni mst ok!

and next week,we ve holiday on Monday..BUT, we had BST wiith him again on Tuesday!!~scary balik~

live ur live~!~

assalamualaikum wbt..and a very good nyte everyone..

yeah,its nyte already,and alhamdulillah, now im in week 2 of IM (internal medicine)..busiest, scariest, mentaliast (xde wujud pktaan ni pun), which all lead to thinking, thinking, and thinking and at the end of the day, we can't stand to read the book,so the book will read us..huhu

well,this morning as usual we have to share a tazkirah,or peringatan,or any meaningful thought in class, just a presenter (like what i did last week).and this time around, Ina present a simple inspiring word..i wish i can share it here (oh yeah..ni link dia...tolong bukak ok!!=))..it's sumthing about life..short but sweet..

dia bg analogy mudah...


beberapa org anak murid berkunjung ke rumah prof mereka tuk bertanya khabar..and the prof invited them into the house, and sediakan beberapa biji cawan untuk menjamu air kopi..interestingly, setiap org memilih cawan2 yg cantik,yg nmpk unik, untuk diri masing2, dan tingallah cawan2 plastik and x brape cantik kat atas dulang..

and the prof said..

look at yourself...

setiap dr kamu memilih cawan yg berlainan, dan kamu saling melihat rakan2 kamu punya cwn untuk dibanding2kan..dan cawan ini sy isikan air kopi,dan kamu sume akan merasa kan kopi yg sama...

do u get the main point of the simple story?

kite andaikan kopi itu kehidupan kite..life kite....and cwan itu,ada cwn yg cantik,nmpk mahal, mcm2 la,dan itu mewakili apa yg kite kat dunia ni,cth mcm kereta, rumah, pangkat dato datin tan sri, and so whatever...

aim kite nak minum air kopi, btol?dengan rasa nikmat..mcm kehidupan..live ur life!!

~the happiest people don't have everything but they just make the best of everything~

ok,nanti sy sambung..xlarat sudah..batuk x baik lg..hujan plak..mmg kene rest~~~zzz...


p/s: from Prof Dr Muhayah's fb  b4 we slept:
Kita semua suka risaukan perkara belum berlaku. Cuba jadikan diri kita tenang dan ceria dan kita akan pengaruhi orang sekeliling kita. Sebelum tidur malam ini renung kembali perbuatan kita dan audit dan belajar dan fokus kepada kesy ukuran Allah beri kita pada hari ini dan maafkan semua orang dan niat untuk lebih beriman esuk hari

...

“Tidaklah orang Muslim ditimpa cobaan berupa penyakit atau lainnya, melainkan Allah menggugurkan keburukannya, sebagaimana pohon yang menggugurkan daunnya.”

(HR. Bukhari-Muslim)

i had bad cough for 5 days already, and feel like feverish tonyte..may Allah ease my day tomorrow..

p/s: mari sama2 gandakan amalan di awal 10 zulhijjah ni=)

i like!

i took it sumwhere in the fb =)

jumaat itu

bila datang je ari jumaat, i will feel different..i want to be different..i feel real happy..even ada class pack2 pun,i will make sure myself to get enough satisfaction..friends,food, shopping,family..
the feeling was not new actually..i will try to make sumyhing to make me happy since i was in 2dary school=)

when i was in secondary school, i love Jumaat bcz early morning we will recite asmaul-husna with tazkirah b4 the assembly started.with all the students have to wear baju melayu and the gurls will wear baju kurung with maroon colour uniform,i feel delight and we will having nasi ayam for the lunch!!!waa,skenye!!!
and it continues to matrix life..i love Jumaat bcz eventhough we were having tutorial on chemistry and physics with a very strict teacher who loved to shout and stuff,but towards in the afternoon, i  will go back to my room and having great lunch with my roomate plus other friends in front of room..yeah, i love matriculation life  a lots..
and take note that there's no class after solat Jumaat and usually i will go back to see my family..
in uni life,,there's no much differences.. i still celebrating Jumaat as my raya day until now...
when i was in pre-clinical years, we will having exams every Friday morning which gimme lot of tense..and after the examination, i will make sure i treat myself with good food..selalunye i will order kyros kebab or mee hong kong as my fav..yummeh..
now in clinical years, we had great time every single Jumaat as i will celebrate Jumaat as much as i can..

like this week, week 1 of IM (internal medicine), i suspect we don't really have much time to spend for our self. yeah,its true when it comes to IM posting by the way..we had class cardio with our beloved cardiologist Prof Latiff. as usual,before the class started, we have to share sumthing aka tazkirah with others. my friend ask my help to swap as she had to present case so she didn't ready for tazkirah..so,its my turn!!!whoa!!!!

i got an idea. dapat dari fb jgak..cerita berkenaan seorang pemuda rupawan (ade ke) yg menemani seorg hamba Allah semasa arwah dimandi,kafan smpai ke liang lahad. even semua org da balik dr kubur, the handsome guy masih berada di sisi arwah.when malaikat munkar nakir dtg untuk menyoal arwah, the handsome guy said, i will accompany this man and make sure he will be comfortable in the kubur sampai bertemu hari akhirat..and the handsome man is actually an al-Quran whom the arwah used to be friend with al-Quran semasa hidupnya...it was a simple story i shared so that we didnt forget to read our al-Quran eventhough bz with other books..

and our lecturer aka the cardiologist expand my story dengan bestnye..bukan nye kite bersahabat dgn quran just baca 2 muka surat per day and that's it..kite da bersahabat..its not like that..we have to learn and make the Quran as our guidance in this reality world..we do as what Allah asked us to do berpandukan al-Quran and hadith..selagi kamu berpegang pada keduanya,kamu xkan sesat..tu pesan Rasullah..

by the way, mmg sgt byk and general info prof share with us before the class started lambat and abes nearly 1 o'clock..and i started to be hypoglycemic....

so,i  asked mksha, to treat ourself at cyberia (da lama x mkn kat cyberia)..makan mee hong kong!!my fev ever...alhamdulillah..done..sempat cuci mata kat cyberia street mall coz ada byk jualan kat street tu..

and after that we were heading to hospital Serdang, as we had to take HIV case to be presented on Monday morning...jumpe HIV ptn yg sgt la kurus x bermaya..
and at 5pm  i arrived home at putrajaya, and sangat la x larat, hypoglycemic lagi..
and the best thing i did was clearing my room=)
and kemas everything and i feel happy again...

family

ve been a long time to put this pic..

am proud to be a muslim

am very grateful to be part of this family

thank you to Allah for this wonderful gift

may Allah bless us forever..

agar sentiasa berada dlm rahmahNya...

insyaAllah..

p/s :konvensyen keluarga melayu muslim..let us begin from the end of mind..tp da lpas pun kat  sini..

que b4 u get married

yeah, i know some of u might have some 'list' or 'criteria' to choose ur spouse later in ur life...or maybe not later, and u are still searching..zzzz...

well, b4 u get  involve in love, or senang crite b4 u nak berkenalan dgn the opposite sex, which is mestilah berkawan dan matlamat akhirnya perkahwinan,u shud ask him@ her with few question in medical view of point, yeah for ur own benefit jgak..islamic view which are 4 criteria to pilih pasangan,sume da lpas kan..ok,here we go:

1. are u smoker?
2. jom gi buat HIV test dulu
3. jom gi check Thallesemia

jeng2..
x scary pun soalan2 ni..but yeah,for girls, if u want to be 'friend' with guys,pilih la yg x merokok..coz smoker will harm u and ur future family..i bet that..x percaya?jom dtg spital...oh yeah,for guys also,ve to ask the girl weather she's smoking or not..girls nowadays hard to believe u know..trend remaja pmpn mrokok smakin mningkat..scary!!i think,kat skola even kat skola rendah, the guru2 yg berdedikasi mestilah selalu memberi nasihat kat anak  murid mende2 simple mcmni..its look simple,yet xramai guru buat.btol x?kalo guru math,masuk klas pung pang pung pang ajar math,x sentuh pun bab social life ni..huhu..maybe guru2 boleh amik masa sikit nasihatkan anak murid, for our own good future jgak..pemuda sekarang mencerminkan negara in the future..

next,HIV test ni wajeeebbbbb la sgt2 (alhamdulillah,kementerian kesihatan da wajibkan sblm kahwin kan)...1st day in IM ward today i got HIV ptn..the husband is an ex-drug user..intravenous drug abuse (IVDU) waktu muda2 dulu..kiteorg x amik history kat ptn sbb wife dia ada sama (and the nurse da btau toksah soal dpn wife sal IVDU), sbb wife x tahu..and the husband was postive HIV 10 years ago,yet dia tahu dia HIV and get married to an innocent female which xtahu dia juga da dpt HIV itu by now..so sad=(
and know what, org pmpn akan mninggal dahulu b4 the male after dia dpt HIV.why?u can email me for the answer..hehe...yup,ada kene mengena dgn cervical cancer..
so,moral valuenye, test dulu ur spouse dulu b4 kawen ok?walaupun muka dia innocent je skrg,perangai skrg x sama mcm zaman muda2 dulu..we will never know that..

last but not least, Thallesemia test..if u are a carrier, pilih la pasangan yg xde trait Thall ni..if u are a carrier, and unfortunately ur spouse pun carrier,alamatnye, your children will suffer later in their life..sebab they have to transfuse blood regularly which is really err....so,baik gi cek dulu ok?
if he/she is carrier yet u are normal,so,proceed je,no worries=)

ok,tu je nak share arini..aigooo...IM sgttt la membuatkan sy hypoglycemic..tett

by the way, i like this song when i 1st heard it..nice song, aishiteru by zivilia=)

simpati?empati?

baru2 ni kite digemparkan dgn berita seorg kanak2 perempuan yg baru berusia 2 thn di langgar 2x oleh van and lorry di China..and more than 10 peoples just walk away x hiraukan the poor little girl..argh!!i feel like fainting..

when i saw 1st in the news,i was like,damn cruel those people!(yeah, u can repeat the thingy in you tube) link sini..budak tu kene gelak sekali dgn van, oh my Allah..betul2 atas perut..tayar depan skali,tayar blakang skali..and org Ca Ya Nun Alif ni buat x reti je??next dtg van kcik,lenyek kaki pulak..ya Allah,sedihnye..serius rasa nak nangis,.this is the cruel thing ever happen in children..


where's the empathy and sympathy of people nowadays?

sometimes,am wondering myself..am i lacking those stuff? sedih and takut jugak..tgh hr td,am visiting my neighbor masuk hospital coz ada complicataion from the appendicectomy he had done few month b4..my mother's expression was really terperanjat and scared and risau,those empathy face reveals for those thing happen to that boy.. ye lor,kene jahit and operate quite long jgak..am not really surprised and am maintaning my poker face sub-consciously..i was like,em,can't really express the 'true' face to see those thing like my mother, bcz ive seen that everyday in the hospital..

is it cruel?no,i mean,is it appropiate?

in med school,we were taught to maintain our face and not to show our kerut2 or muka kesian to the ptn,as we have to be professional. hence the ptn will feel not right to us. when the ptn see the confident dr's look at them, they will feel secure.
sblm ni, mmg byk kali sy ditegur..especially in paeds ward..ward knak2..kwn2 slalu tegur,my face cpat sgt berubah when look into the ptn..(and kdg2 sy xnak g skali dgn sorg classm8 yg ske tegur muka sy nih)..even sy cuba memaintainkan muka yg 'berhati kering'...huhu..susah jgak rpenye..

and sy risau,sy xde perasaan empati kpd ptn2..(esp sedara mara yg slalu tanya hal2 berkaitan perubatan).how i can answer their question with the appropriate look mcm muka org biasa yg menerima keadaan suatu musibah?


but the accident (not really accident pun!) happen in China really make me cries.

n9 vs Tteam

last night, my family & i went to Tesco yg baru bukak kat seremban jaya..saje nak jln2 tgk tesco baru..rmi sungguh org yg dtg mai,maybe dr kwsan area seremban jaya ke Tampin la kot..huaa..rmi smpai jam la jlan, esp kat simpang ke tol..kat situ org br kua tol,stuck dgn next traffic plus org nak kua dr Tesco,and we were one of the mangsa trapped in the hectic..

so,dlm kete time borak2 tu,kua cte sal bola..mlm ni Tteam vs n9..i was thinking Tteam tu pe?

me:Tteam tu pe?
N: Tteam tu felda la..
me:oh ye ke..so,kite nak sokong mana ni?
N:kite sokong Tampin!!!!

haha..we burst out of laugh..k,mcm agak lawak la jgak..hik2


so,time nak stat bola tu,baru tahu terangganu vs n9..mssg yg berbunyi:peteh Tteam,peteh Tteam,siap xnak geng lagi..patut la..hehe..xpe2,yg penting n9 menang dgn comelnye=))

oh yeah,kite xgeng dgn org ganu tuk sminggu ye..tggu final sabtu ni..

p/s: sejak bila ntah rajen tgk bola nih

luqman hakim's dentist day

today i got time to bring my little bro visit the dentist at kk ampangan...actually it's me to visit the dentist bcz got pain at the R upper inner (ada ke pktn ni dlm dentistry?), so i need to check-up my teeth.lama jgak x visit dentist ni..

and alang2 nak visit tu,bw luqman skali..so,nanti dia da biasa dgn dentist, xde cerita2 horror pasal sakit gigi and what not..and,he will get good 1st experience jmp dentist..and widen his knowledge and experience..well2,he's a good boy though..i bring him up to the clinic and the misi said,'puan,boleh bw anak kedepan?"oh my...she call me puan?fine la..da biasa pun org pggil puan bila berdua ngan akim.huhu...

hakim got his 1st check up dulu..the misi said,nanti da 6 thn baru jmp lagi,sbb skrg gigi masih in developmental timing..and she advised luqman to brush his teeth every morning and b4 sleep and after eating..huh.baru ku tahu budak kecik pun kene gosok gigi 3x shari??if its me,i brush my teeth after and before sleep only..hehe..in between just kumur or floss..utk hakim,mmg babah akan mandikan and gosok gigi akim every morning..so,shud be no problem..

this is a conversation btw luqman and the MA while the dentist check my teeth

MA: nama sape?

LH: luqman hatim (oh ye,still xleh sebut 'k')

MA:da brape thn ni adik?

LH: 4 years old

MA: x gi skola ke rini?

LH: rini school holiday kat smart reader..teacher ckp xyah gi stool (when he said this,i was like,er,mana ada school holiday!mama yg suh cuti sbb nak lama2 ngan kklang yg nak balik egypt.hehe)

MA: da bsar nanti nak jadi apa?

LH: dokter tafiz.. (dr tahfiz)

MA: pe tu?

LH: dokter la...

dlm hati sy (time ni xleh nak nyampuk sbb dr tgh 'operate" gigi), nak je suh luqman benti ckp..coz he talks a lot!!

mari rakan2,jaga gigi anda dgn berjumpa dentist 6 bulan skali aka setahun 2x..=)

i dunno why, but this is his expression bila tgk cartoon.. serious bebenor

hakim suka jmp dentist=)

butter cake aka kek mentega

ari tu discuss2 ngan ibu..ive to make sumting to give wani sbb dia nak balik mesir jumaat ni transit for almost 22 hours kat mana ntah, can't recall..wani request carrot cake,tp takot  x tahan sbb dia moist sgt..wani nak jgak cheese cake (which i buat kat mesir lg sedap and lembut berbanding kat mesia,koreh bonar) bhn2 nak buat dia x sama mesia and mesir..so,ibu come out dgn butter cake..fav ibu jgak..so,looking forward 4 it..

1. Ayak1 1/2 cwn tpg gandum,serbuk penaik,1sd sodium bicarp sebanyak 3x
2. Panaskan oven 170C,sediakan tin pembakar,pukul gula dan butter (1/2 cwn) hingga kembang masukan telur(2 biji)  satu demi satu dan pukul hingga kembang
3. Masukan esen vanilla,masukan gandum selang seli dengan susu segar(1/2cwn).masukan dalam tin pembakar masak selama 40 minit. 
4. taraaaa..siap and packing!

one week holiday

alhamdulilah, starting from yesterday, officially im home with one-week break!!

after 4 postings non-stop, we had this one -week break before another 2 more postings waiting for us. next week will be internal medicine (IM) the scariest ever and the other one is emergency medicine+ psychiatry..

bila tulis IM je,da rasa kecut perut.


well2, before cuti ritu,ive list down things i should do during this one week holiday. obviously study tempat pertama sbb my pro exam will be on this january (OH MY!!!xsampai lg 2 bulan kot!!!)lg berbutterfly perut sey ni..

target:
academically
1. abeskan noted O&G
2.go through all PMS topics in all 4 previous postings (O&G, paediatric, surgery and orthopaedics)
3.wanna go back early at Putrajaya. Saturday got extra class with Dr Shuhaila as usual.so,boleh study IM Ahad nnt kat umah putra peacefully.hihi (kalo baba bg)..have to be prepared Isnin terus masuk posting IM with hard-core-well-known-drs.

non-academic
1. gi Mydin baru kat seremban and beli stationary (done)
2. wani nak balik jumaat ni,so mcm nak buat sumthing..(kek maybe?)
3.abes kan cte korea (ssh btol bila da stick dgn korean.sila jgn tgk movie korea ok kwn2,nnt addicted)
4.balik Melaka visit relatives (done)


ok,mst org ckp sy ni typical med student.well, ckp je la pape, sbb sy mmg kene study kuat.huaa....kalo sy x buat,sy xtau bila sy nak study,sbb sy rs ari2 sy main2 x study byk.sobz

last but not least, do pray for me ya..doakan sy btambah kuat smngat nak study cuti nih (hewhew), and brtmbah smngat and knowledgeable masuk IM isnin nnt..insyaAllah

kakak itu

saya rasa bahagia hari ini..=)
bahagia selepas berjaya menenangkan srg ptn primigravida in labour and she delivered SVD without instrumental (vacuum or so whatever)..
i teach her how to teran and push,and the correct way to breath in and breath out and get ur energy and push!!
gaya expert x tahan..hahaaa


well,sy bahagia sgt..she did well..i like that patient very much..before she delivered her baby, she had contraction, regular and gradually increasing, which mmg tanda nak bersalin selain pecah ketuban and keluar show (mucos+blood), still she can smile..yeah i know she's quite nervous,and in pain!of course!..anak sulung kan, 1st experince..seronok dpt ajar dia with her husband beside her duk dgr celotoh medical student sorang ni...her husband is a very good supporter too!!

bygkan,time dia tgh nak teran tu,when i count 1-10, 'ok akk,common,1,2,3,4,5!!!'and the husband pun ikut sama,push akk!!push akk!!eh,silap..ayang!!push!!push!!hahaha...lawak okay..tp xleh gelak..hahaha


well,penting jgak sbnarnye husband duk bersama istri time istri nak bersalin kan bayi..it's emotional support..the wife get the strength from the husband, and i can feel when time nak teran tu, the wife can't really focus to whatever around her..so,the husband yg duk pegg tgn wife,and kalo boleh kira 1-10 second, the wife can follow and it makes the labour progress easily..see?

lama jgak sbnrnye baby nak keluar..da kire2 nak psg vacuum..well,kalo vacuum, husband xleh tgk kelahiran bayi and sumtimes, ada complication from the procedure,so kalo boleh kite mmg nak elakkan vacum and c-section (operation)..so,boleh byg kan x pentingnye kelahiran semulajadi aka VSD aka vagina spontaneous delivery?

and alhamdulillah, the kakak tu kuat semangat,cuba jgak tuk push in pain and the peluh2 abes..husband pun muka cuak..hehe..and the baby at last keluar dgn selamat..alhamdulillah..

and the beautiful thing happen was when the husband and the wife really appreciate us, the medical students and nurses in the labour room for helping them deliver the baby=) terima kasih ye dr..terima kasih ye nurse..terima kasih ye adik..he thanks everyone in the delivery suite tu and u know what i feel?rasa seronok sgt!!happy!!!bahagia!!

coz not all ptn will do that..

so,kpd akk yg asyik senyum sblm and slps bersalin td & da selamat melahirkan baby boy td,congratulation to u=)baby akk sgt hensem..hehe