mummy & i chocolate's day

today is holiday..awal Muharam..yet we already met the new year=)

moga thn ni kite lebih bersemangat menghadapi cabaran thn baru..

hasil nye puan2 dan tuan2 sekalian...byk taww dpt...yg penting SEDAP!!

guna oil base ye..bukan water base..nnt coklat x jadik

best main colour2...kalo luqman join,mst dia ske...hehe

ok,pasni boleh amik tempahan..sape2 nak rder choclate,meh bg nama kay!!=)

Aidiladha di CUCMS & BBQ at prof Latiff's

my lecturers were imagine that they want to produce Muslim's drs who are not totally like ulat buku punye product..so they create the silibus in CUCMS, so that we can socialize, involve in activity bersama, and at the same time,strive for excellent in our studies..here are small part of it..we had more and more activities together with the lecturers..yeah, we love our lecturers soooo much!!!can wait to become 'somene' like them in the future..insyaAllah...

ske tgk depa melapah 3 ekor lembu!!

prof Latiff pun join the spirit=)

kami wakil gadis2 hanya mampu mnjadi supporter blakang pentas.hehe

with Ust Hasanuddin, the cool ustaz ever..he organized this Aidiladha progmme in our college

juga support tuk kenduri bihun sup daging

the right side is my anesthetist,the calm and charm prof Ikram, 

the left one is Ust Hasanuddin, our Tafseer's teacher

budak laki mkn sup mcm xpenah mkn sup je

kami yg duk hirup sup sedap daging korban

Next is our 'end of posting' celebration. berakhir sudah posting IM yg mencabar dan sgt best ini <3

so,we decided to mkn2 kat umah prof Latiff...mcm2 ada

the girls preparing for BBQ

and the coleslaw was super delicious!!!add the green apple into it

and this is our big group..with prof Latif at the back in her Yellow Bersih's shirt..hehe

final week of IM sem 9

well today, it's quite a big day for me..normally, on tuesday and thursday we will have BST with our prof Rasyid..SCARY..itu mmg sinonim dgn prof R ni..
actually,kiteorg bukan takut as in takut sbb dia grg x tentu hala so whatever..tp scary sbb cara dia mengajar tu,sgt menusuk jiwa..'mkn dlm beb'...cmtu la org ckp..

hari ni kiteorg 'kene' lg dgn dia.. kene brain wash..his style of teaching senang je..dia xkan paksa, or tunjuk student suh amik history taking or do physical examination on patient..tp he'will wait until the student respond to his question..

dia xkisah nak ulang soalan dia banyak kali..'sape nak examine patient ni,dipersilakan'..dia akan tggu smpai ada student volunteer..kiteorg yg ada dlm 12 org ni,mmg nak buat,tp TAKOT!!depan patient,prof R mmg baik la kan..sekali masuk bilik untuk discussion, 'U ARE NOT THINKING IN WHAT YOU ARE DOING!'oh my..abes suda..

kali ni,ptn present with ecchymosis..ada bleeding disorder..very rare in msia..this poor girl (25 years old,single plak tu) have a very huge ecchymoses on her face..plus she got menorrhagia..and a case like this, da mmg jarang jumpe kat Msia yg aman damai ni,mmg la kiteorg terkial2 nak jwb..prof,prof..prof tau x,suara sy ni mcm xleh nak keluar kalo klas ngan prof..sy kecut perut...sobz

well, this is our last bst with him..IM in sem 9 is over..tp prof bg peringatan td..u won't become a good doctor if u just do whatever ppl ask u to do routinely..u have to THINK!!and an excellent dr have reason ie evidence based medicine in whatever he/she do ..so,see u next sem..IM sem 10..am dead...

10 am to 12.30pm with him is like a very short period of time..luckily ive settled my patient pagi2 lagi..bukan pe..prof ni ske je nak pilih mana2 ptn,kalo terkena ptn kite,abes sudah..huhu..tp kalo da well prepared, redha je la kan..hihi

next class with dr shuhaila aka dr shu..putrajaya hospital plak at 2pm..dr ni lembut and baik sikit..and dia ske bg smngat and mmg ajar how to be a good housemen aka dr...so,seronok tu dtg balik walaupun rasa 'kering' lpas klas prof R td..abes klas dr shu,spatutnye ada next class kul 5pm dgn dr zul,dr paling sempoi from specialiat senawang hospital..tp kiteorg escape for the 1st time..hehe

sbb nye??

kiteorg nak marinate ayam!!mlm ni BBQ!!end of posting gathering,kiteoeg panggil all lecturers yg aja IM ni,mkn sama2,BBQ di umah proff Latiff..tp prof R x dpt dtg,so sad..wpon dia grg,kiteorg tahu kiteorg byk blaja in his class..


so,am hoping for the best...really i want to be a safe good doctor..i want to help ppl get rid of their problem and disease and go back to their family...oh Allah,pls lead and help me along this way...amin...

.my life.

sumtimes in life, u didn't always feel good..

hidup bak roda,kjap kat atas,kjap turun bwh..

well, i feel that too..

and now my roda i feel it's di bwh..

that's what i feel by the way..

am not feel happy.

im just a normal girl..

with so many big dreams..

yeah i know, am a daughter to my parents..am also a student..am also a human being..

i know i've a responsibility as a daughter, student, human..

but pls treat me as a normal human being!

a human that have feelings and want her right!!

sy bukan seorang manusia yg hidup untuk memuaskan hati pihak2 lain..

sy x mampu untuk hidup untuk dinilai pada mata manusia

sy x mampu  hidup utk org 'melihat' sy

sy x suka itu

sy penat untuk hidup pada nilaian manusia..

serius,penat melayan karenah manusia..

and i feel that's very unfair u did to me..

our thought is different..

i can't fullfill ur demand..

u also can't fulfill my demand..

bcoz we have opposite thought..

u always think about people...

which i didn't care much...

but i did care my feelings..

u didn't care my feelings..

and it hurts..

kenapa ye things like this happen to me?

when i think deep, it's life actually...

i ve to accept that..

when i know it's going to be 'chronic'

i don't have any prevention for this..

but what i know:

pergantungan hanya pada dia yg satu..

bukan pada tiang yg boleh bengkok..

bukan pada manusia yg tak tetap hatinye..

...Allah...

may Allah ease my way, my life..i need my life..
my life is short..
am not going to waste a SINGLE single of it..

111111

today,i mean this morning, oh its FRIDAY!!!'

beautiful date huh?

td pas abes klas around 7 pm at hosp serdang, we got a news that our batch mate, zaizul's wife baru bersalin seorg baby gugurl..syukur alhamdulillah, normal delivery, no complication..bestnye, bersalin kat hspital yg sama..so,dr tingkat 7 tu,kami turun tangge ke ward 5, sempat la jmp istri dia (she's a future teacher) and the cute baby..1st time jmp istri zaizul sbnarnye, time depa kawen dulu, sorg kat ganu,sorg kat johor,xdan nak pi 2,2..

so,one of the conversation is

A: ala akak,arini 10 hb 11, kalo smpat tahan,cantek dah bersalin esok aka 111111
H (zazizul's wife): nak wat cmna..da x tahan sgt sakit dia..hehe..and bla2..cte sal bersalin sume

act,no point pun cte ni..saje berkongsi gembira..most of the guys in our college has been married..whoaahhh..alhamdulillah..and 3 of them da dpt anak pun thn ni..kirenye,anak zaizul yg ke 3..siap diaorg da discuss2 nak kawen kan anak2 masing2..aish..jauh bebenor fikirannye..

ttbe rasa nak kawen..hehe..maybe sbb arini 111111?
ngarut je..
k la...nyte everyone!!c ya tomorrow!!

salam~

morning's quote for today =)

Kita tidak akan rasa bahagia jika kita tidak berkongsi apa yang kita ada dengan orang lain. Hari ini jom kongsi apa sahaja yang bermanafaat dengan orang lain. niat memberi bukan menerima dan tanya ' bagaimana saya boleh beri' buka apa saya boleh dapat. Jom semua pekerja jangan berkira tulang urat kita berikan yang termampu mungkin untuk mendapat tuaian besar di akhirat nanti..
~ Prof Dr Muhaya~

think

sejak masuk IM ni, most of the word that come out from our lecturers are THINK!

THINK!!!

THINK!!!!

and tonyte, after settling everyting ie reading books, abes dah bab DM, i feel nak muntah..nauseated..a lot of thing masuk dlm pale..everything...from study life..personal life..family component....future thinking...everything la masuk or lintas or so what ever dlm pale ni...

i need to do something...mimi,pls focus..pls..

eiduladha 1432

assalamualaikum...

a very happy and delightful day..

hari raya aidiladha yg disambut pada 10,11,12 and 13 zulhijjah setiap thn, alhamdulillah, masih berkesempatan umtuk kite sambut pada thn ini..masih dpt merasai kemanisan silaturrahim antara keluarga, jiran tetangga dan sanak saudara..masih dpt merasai dan memperingati kisah silam kasih syg demi Allah nabi ibrahim, dan isteri dan juga nabi ismail..keikhlasan dari pengorbanan yg luar biasa...kemahuan Allah menjadi puncaknya...

it can be our reflection, isn't it?
once u let go your attachment (u name it, ur love one,ur fav things, ur everything) just for Allah, what u love is given back to u--> now in purer, a better form..
so let us asked ourselves in these beautiful days of sacrifice, which attachments do we need to slaughter?

disunatkan bertakbir irama merdu itu 3 hari berturut2..i feel love..i can't wait to be one of the guest in Meqah..when is it?im praying for it..i miss it..

yesterday when i watched takbir raya kat tv, i feel touched with the meaning..so here,am attached in my blog so i won't forget the beautiful meaning inside it.. hopefully, when we bertakbir, we feel also the meaning of it..

love is sacrifice..

sacrifice u love most..
be it everything..
mainly for Allah..

kuah kacang koww

am proud today=))))

mummy asked me to buat kuah kacang for takbir raya mlm ni..and dengan penuh semangat and kededikasian yg tggi,sy berjaya buat kuah kacang!!!(of course ibu da btau brg2 apa nak guna.simple je rpenye)


tp  ibu komen,kuah kacang i x kaw..xpe2,kite tulis kat blog jgn bagi lupa resipi okay..next time boleh buat kaw2..

nama diberi: Kuah Kacang Mim's Kaw (skrg xkaww la,tp next time kite buat la bg kaww okey)

1. tumbuk bawang merah, bawang putih, udang kering, halia and sedikit belacan..
2. next, tumis, and da garing, masukkan cili yg da mesin..and cili ni penting untuk bg kaler merah dia cantik you....
3. next, dah kering garing cili, masukkan air asam jawa sikit..mcm nak masak asam,tp jgn byk sgt..and tmbah air lagi bg setengah periuk..
4. lastly, baru masukkan kacang yg i da mesin awal2 tadi ye puan2..jgn da siap semua,kacang x mesin plak.itu kelakar..
5.taraa!!!siap!!

ok,actually,i know nape kuah kacang i x kaw..sbb i lupa masuk halia..hihi..da masuk air asam jawa,baru i teringat halia..isk2..naseb la ibu x tau.haha..itu sangat mak nenek ye syamimi..semangat tinggi bebenau nak masaknye...

ok,jom buat trifle plak..and puding jagung...

p/s: can't wait the rombongan dtg buat takbir kat rumah tonyte=)

long day of being screwed

hopefully, yesterday will be a history that i won't forget..of course i wont forget this sampai bila2

generally, we had BST with Prof Rasyid, then i have to present case with Dr Shuhaila, in the evening we BST again with Dr Zul and at nigth we have class again with our beloved dedicated Dr Rafizi..

and early in the morning, i went to the hospital with a weak body, feverish and cough yg x baik2..and as usual, early morning, we had to update our patient.

the sad thing is, bila BST tu, we had to discuss with Prof Rasyid, and his stail of teaching really make me wanna fainting (not me only,tp sume mmg cuak pun dgn dr sorang ni).hukz..and we were discussing on a patient who had fever for 1 week. discuss punye discuss, he had leptospirosis. (be careful to those yg suke jungle trekking, mandi air terjun.if u had fever a week or a month after that, cpat2 jmp dr)..the discussion is not main thing about leptospira (yeah,din beramboi was died sbb leptospira),we have to expand the diagnosis..and we did discuss about malaria, and dengue fever..

and this Prof nye stail teaching seriuosly scary..yeah, it's good actually bcz he urge us to THINK!!

I WANT TO PRODUCE THINKING DOCTORS , NOT THE FOLLOWERS!!!(ayat dia ske ckp)

I think i should give u ANMUM so that semua sel2 otak berhubung 

(ni satu iklan yg dia ske sgt quote dlm klas.hehe)

but then, with my weak condition, i didn't really prepared myself..im sooo dead..hukz..i didn't blame myself of being weak physically, but weak in knowledge..i feel lose..

and he kept looking at me and asked question, siap jegil2 mata,waaaa!!!!

i was seriously drowning..but alhamdullilah, we learn a lot..semua org mmg takut nak masuk klas dia,tp bila dlm klas tu,u know u will get sumthing..i have to revise back,ni mst ok!

and next week,we ve holiday on Monday..BUT, we had BST wiith him again on Tuesday!!~scary balik~

live ur live~!~

assalamualaikum wbt..and a very good nyte everyone..

yeah,its nyte already,and alhamdulillah, now im in week 2 of IM (internal medicine)..busiest, scariest, mentaliast (xde wujud pktaan ni pun), which all lead to thinking, thinking, and thinking and at the end of the day, we can't stand to read the book,so the book will read us..huhu

well,this morning as usual we have to share a tazkirah,or peringatan,or any meaningful thought in class, just a presenter (like what i did last week).and this time around, Ina present a simple inspiring word..i wish i can share it here (oh yeah..ni link dia...tolong bukak ok!!=))..it's sumthing about life..short but sweet..

dia bg analogy mudah...


beberapa org anak murid berkunjung ke rumah prof mereka tuk bertanya khabar..and the prof invited them into the house, and sediakan beberapa biji cawan untuk menjamu air kopi..interestingly, setiap org memilih cawan2 yg cantik,yg nmpk unik, untuk diri masing2, dan tingallah cawan2 plastik and x brape cantik kat atas dulang..

and the prof said..

look at yourself...

setiap dr kamu memilih cawan yg berlainan, dan kamu saling melihat rakan2 kamu punya cwn untuk dibanding2kan..dan cawan ini sy isikan air kopi,dan kamu sume akan merasa kan kopi yg sama...

do u get the main point of the simple story?

kite andaikan kopi itu kehidupan kite..life kite....and cwan itu,ada cwn yg cantik,nmpk mahal, mcm2 la,dan itu mewakili apa yg kite kat dunia ni,cth mcm kereta, rumah, pangkat dato datin tan sri, and so whatever...

aim kite nak minum air kopi, btol?dengan rasa nikmat..mcm kehidupan..live ur life!!

~the happiest people don't have everything but they just make the best of everything~

ok,nanti sy sambung..xlarat sudah..batuk x baik lg..hujan plak..mmg kene rest~~~zzz...


p/s: from Prof Dr Muhayah's fb  b4 we slept:
Kita semua suka risaukan perkara belum berlaku. Cuba jadikan diri kita tenang dan ceria dan kita akan pengaruhi orang sekeliling kita. Sebelum tidur malam ini renung kembali perbuatan kita dan audit dan belajar dan fokus kepada kesy ukuran Allah beri kita pada hari ini dan maafkan semua orang dan niat untuk lebih beriman esuk hari