envy

U know the feeling of ‘been taken away’?

Once my friend (A) asked me in the car when we were on our  way to our friend’s wedding  in Segamat. We were talking about our friend (B) who have been engage and will be getting married sooner or later. And mind that A and B were best friend since school time. A didn’t really like the story of B getting engage & married.haha..u know those feelings right?or u don't? ahha..

Same goes to me when A asked me, how is my feeling getting a ‘kaklong’ in the house? Yeah, my brother was getting married u know, 22nd August (his birthdate) few days ago, and suddenly i have a sister.a sister? Yes, an elder sister!(despite me being the eldest sister in the house)

I won’t care actually whether being an elder or not..but the mixed feeling of getting a new member in our family, i think i need time to adjust with that situation. ME ENVY. Really.

What do i feel?

I feel jealous when kaklong called my mother ibu and my dad is baba. And my parents also membahasakan diri masing2 as ibu and baba to kaklong. I feel really jealous when now my mother sits with kaklong despite of me. Me so childish. Aigooooooo

feel jealous when my aunty and uncle talk about kaklong.kah2.

and kaklong is a silent lady whom i just heard few words from her..

and really am appreciated her when she called me kakngah.heh~

Still i feel jealous with kaklong.haha...lawak gak la,rasa mcm budak kecik yg tetibe kehilangan arah.tetibe rasa her parents got another nice new thing and forget about her.haha..bedebush2...tumbuk la muka sendiri..

Well,am adapting my new life, my new family member..maaf atas khilafan dari saya..really, i didn’t mean to avoid u kaklong, but i feel like i need time to adjust myself with the surrounding..

time will heal us. i know we will be a very good friend one day.yeah, one day.

ramadhan

alhamdulillah..da masuk hari ke 19 ramdhan..dah 19 hari kite berpuasa..(ok,ada lompong,tp Allah yg bg.hihi)
well,this time around,agak best ramadhan sbb pe?

sebab,im HOME for the whole puasa!!yeay!!for the 1st time okay...ye lor,before ni kan duk asrama,masuk hostel,duk umah sewa...so,kesempatan berbuka dan berpuasa di rumah hanyalah pada hari minggu...this time aorund, i ve plan for sumthing for my family..niatnye,untuk mendapatkan kesihatan rohani dan jasmani,pada kadar yg optimum..ala,gaya mcm Lee Chong Wey, the pocketrocketman dll.. semangat tau gi olimpik 2012 ni..

1.sahur
yup,sy da start kan my parents to sahur dengan oats before ramadhan lagi..rejab,syaaban kite digalakkan berpuasa and they also did fasting initially dengan oats..lama2,diaorg pun biasa dengan oats,alhamdulillah..as we all know,oat can reduce cholesterol in our body right?so,amal2kan slalu k..

2.tadarus & quran
my aim is to khatam quran this Ramadhan..tp memandangkan progress yg sgt slow,sy cuba juge untuk membaca Quran. the aim is u read the quran..whether khatam or not,itu no 2...yg penting,baca okay..and my mom pun rajen bertadarus..lpas solat dhuha ke,pas mgrib ke,mesti suh anak2 yg available dgr dia baca..well,its good thou..

3. upgrade solat
as we all know,Allah memberi ganjaran yg sgt bsr kpd hamba2 yg berlumba2 membuat amal di bulan penuh rahmah ini..so,jom kite isi masa pagi dengan wat sunat dhuha..once my ustaz said,nabi Muhammad pun x tinggal solat dhuha ni..if dia x buat,rasa berdosa sgt..so,jom kt amalkan sama2 k..other than that is sunat tarawih..jom la kite buat..rugi x buat sbb time ramdhan je kt jumpa tarawih ni..sujud kat Allah byk2,insyaAllah,cerah hati kite nanti..kumpul pahala kan nak masuk syurga...bukan je solat sunat,tp solat fardhu pun..alhamdulillah..pas sahur yg agak lewat (kan sunnah sahur dilewatkan), my parents and i will heading to the surau in front of our house..subuh jemaah..once hadith said,kalau umat nabi ni tahu betapa bsar ganjaran Allah bg kpd ssp yg solat jemaah subuh & isyak,nescaya mereka akan pergi juge ke masjid walaupun dlm keadaan merangkak..jadi,kite yg masih sihat walafiat cukup sempurna anggota,jom g jemaah k!=)
looking forward lailatulqadr!jom kite wat qiam ari2 k..


4. berbuka
well,as usual my mother will prepare the dish.and of course sedap sehingga menjilat jari..and my dad will eat like heavenly..ni agak payah sebenarnye..kkekekee...sebab ibu masak mmg sedap..nak kata 'baba!xleh tambah nasi!'.mcm susah je kan..but then,alhamdulillah,xde la membazir sepanjang ramadhan ni..sbb kite xmkn nasi time sahur..so,ibu msk comel2 je...and alhamdulillah juge,i asked my parents and family to berbuka di masjid..da pegi masjid sg landak,masjid paroi,masjid putrajaya...plan to go to masjid putrajaya again this week(sbb best sgt terasa mcm kat meqah balik) also masjid negara KL..kat masjid ni,boleh la kite belajar mkn ala kadar kan..kat umah xleh kan..hehe...and pahala yg sgt besar menanti sape2 yg menyediakan mknn untuk org berbuka kan..we invite all families to break fast at our home few days ago..awesome!


5. buat part time
puasa bukan alasan yg kukuh kite nak goyang kaki kat umah,main game tup bukak mata je,.hehe..alhamdulillah,i think,most of my times really pack with things..i went to boutique in the morning,and ajar tuition anak pakngah in the evening..(cmne la nak belajar masak kalo ari2 balik time nak berbuka?hehe) plus, i did part time during weekends aritu..jaga booth baby kak ina..ni da kali ke-3 keje ngan kak ina..3 hari je keje,dpt rm350..best la kan?alhamdulillah..looking forward to do any jobs jugak..ye la,sebelum dpt surat masuk spital pasni kan...huhu


ok,that's all..pape pun,betulkan sy kalo de pape yg slh k...
yg baik tu dr Allah,yg buruk tu dr hamba Allah ini..hakikatnye,semua datang drNya..
moga memberi manfaat!