peringatan tuk saya dan awak

kite sama2 amalkan,okay?

Pertama: Tahajjud, kerana kemuliaan seorang mukmin terletak pada tahajjudnya.

Kedua: Melazimi membaca Al-Qur'an dan zikir al-mathurat sebelum terbit matahari.

Ketiga:Memelihara kesempurnaan solat kerana inilah kekuatan mukmin muslim yang utuh

Keempat: Jaga solat dhuha, kerana kunci rezeki terletak pada solat dhuha.

Kelima: Jaga sedekah setiap hari. Walaupun hanya dengan sekuntum senyuman

Keenam: Jaga wudhuk terus menerus kerana Allah menyayangi hamba yang berwudhu'.

Ketujuh: Amalkan istighfar setiap masa agar terhapus segala dosa dan noda.

Kelapan : Perbaharui Azam dan Tekad untuk terus berkhidmat kerana Allah SWT

Kesembilan : Sentiasa ceria dan berfikiran positif kerana itulah watak seorang mukmin sejati

Kesepuluh : Memelihara Diri dengan keikhlasan yang tulus kerana Allah SWT kerana disitulah terletaknya nilai amalan di sisi Allah SWT.

thursday night

alhamdulillah..
alhamdulillah..
alhamdulillah..

praised to Allah 4 his mercy and kindness of giving me the chance to live on his earth..and today, im very happy, seriously happy from my inside as He give me the chance to go surau An Nur Bangi, to hear the kuliah maghrib from my favorite penceramah,ust Hasrizal..

it has been for a long time for me to hear from life ceramah2 and tazkirah2..hukz..i feel little bit empty in my heart..

x sama rasanye when u just hear from the tape,or watch in the youtube or from the television..serius, the feeling is not the same when u sit dikalangan jemaah,and hear the ust@ustzh talking giving their sermon. the happiness, the enjoyable of receiving the knowledge and ilmu was awesome =p

well, he did talked about Gadiffi, and Libya, also about Palestenian, just to recap the isu2 semasa...isu2 as a muslim we should care of...so,sape kata ustaz2 x up to date?even i as a medical student, x up-to-date dgn prkara2 mcmni =(  did u so?


act,kiteorg (me and housmate) pun dtg lambat td..area 8.30pm baru smpai surau tu..so,time ust hasrizal kupas isu semasa,kiteorg byk ketinggalan..rugi rasanye xpat berkongsi ilmu ngn ust sorang ni..coz he's one of the talented ust yg ada kat Msia ni..kalo tgk jadual dia,mang penuh sokmo..that's why kalo nmpk jadual de ada kat surau AnNUR,whatever condition pun,i ll come..he~


then, he continued with tafsir surah Kahfi..simple and short je cerita pemuda2 dlm gua ini..nak eleborate,mls rsnye..hehe

well,yg penting,i got sumting tonight =p

"Jangan takut, jangan berdukacita." - Al-Ankabut 29:33

everything is new

assalamualaikum and a very good day...
yup, tomorrow will be a very new day for me..

1. new posting tomorrow..our last posting for yr 4..alhamdulillah.. psychiatry aka psy..cuak..btol,sy cuak.abes je 2 bulan psy, terus exam final untuk psy and posting yg baru je abes ni, specialty posting. hukz..gentar sungguh hatiku..

2. mft's going to start teaching tomorrow.the very obvious and significant difference..new life.

3.i bought new hp..sedih sgt sbb hp kesayanganku nokia express music 5610 membuat hatiku berduka..sy masih sygkan awk,jgn risau..sy x jual awk pun..cuma sy beli hp baru..huk2..pasni,sy kene berjimat..beli hp murah je, standard student la kan..nokia c3..pink colour.heh~ serius,kene berjimat ikat perut pasni..

4. x pasti nak pakai baju baru or baju lama esok.sbb baru bli baju ala2 kebaya merah-x-merah-sgt on9..cantek sgt,suit me very well..tp,xkan sume nak baru esok?

5. esok,sy kene semangat gi skool..anggap seperti hari biasa, wpun sy sudah rasa akan ada perbezaanya..hukz

6. tu je la for this time..nak check timetable for tomorrow..

luvly memories with Dura & family at Kelantan

WELCOME TO KELANTAN WITH ALL BEAUTIFUL SCENERY

=p

yeah..good mood,alhamdulillah..spend a little time with my gf in Kelantan last days..it's CNY holiday, when suddenly i decided to meet her..long time no see, of course there will be a lot of stories to share..

but, 3 days there, 3 days jugak la i went to wedding ceremony..hehe..well,i love to go to umah kawen..

1st wedding : my friend's friend wedding..in Machang..temankan Hamidah to visit her friend yg kawen tu

2nd wedding : Dura's friend's sister's wedding..kat area pasir mas juge..

3rd wedding: Dura's mummy's cousin's wedding...

ksimpulanya,stp hari sy amik berkat umah kawen spnjang duk Klantan..hehe..i love it!!i love the tradition!i love the simple and sempoi wedding of Kelantanis..can u ever imagine,there's just a khemah for each wedding..mmg x kan nmpk kot di negeri bukan Kelantan...

lauk pun simple,just 3-4 lauk yg sedap..and mst x tinggal,agar2 kaler mcm2

pada hari ke-3, baru lah sy diketemukan dgn wedding yg cantek juge pndgn mata sy..all red..roses..dari hantaran,ke bilik pengantin...it's proper way, beautiful, stunning~

Al-Quran putih,dikelilingi red rosses

argh,geram tgk hantaran mcm ni

cantek kan?

cantek cantek cantek

Of course da gi Klantan, akan gi jalan2...but this time,no shopping sakan...i just bought my fav food..kopok lekor,kopok keping,kopok segera, kopok2...puas hati, sbb kat putra mahal sgt..huhu..but yeah, we went to this pasar segar area pangkalan kubor,after jln2 kat pangkalan kubor tu..at first, i bought a small plastic of air soya..dahaga sgt..jln2 sket,ada org jual coconut shake..murah nye!!!rm 1 only with 2 scoops of ice-cream!!!i ask kwn dura suh try,OMG,mang sdp sgt!terus i bli jugak...so,ada 2 air kat tgn..tamak sungguh..

 mak cik ni mengidam ke pe...nak mkn colek?

 rm 5 for various asam asam masam..sssssssss

 mkn dulu,baru window shopping..melilau mata cek

 berjalan smpai ke mlm...wakaf che yeh kite...

ni serius x pnh jumpe.tapai ubi goreng

everything goes very well in Kelantan..in fact, i get closer with mummy Dura yg sgt baik..serius,mummy dia sgt baik..ajar wat karipap telur,suh gi pasar tgk kuih yg sgt byk n sgt murah pagi2 kul 7, bawak gi umah kawen,halau kucing dr dapur sbb sy geli kucing gesel2 kat kaki time mkn,siap marah kat kucing tu kacau sy..haha..well,mak2 kan..peramah sokmo..

angah,alang,me,dura,mummy dura,anak2 alang

part paling x best is when we (midah and i ) nak balik putra...hangen jugak..jam all the ways...Dura and her mummy sent me to Machang from Pasir Mas. smpai Machang,Midah took me and brought me to her house, then around 12,terus balik...guess what time smpai umah?

all the way u know,ALL THE WAY!!!

jam....

area 2 am,baru smpai umah...lepet sudah..x tahan..kua dr pahang,trus masuk highway,trus stranded..rpenye,setelah 4-5 jam jem,baru kiteorg dpt tau punca dia..ingtkan accident,tp bukan..dari jalan yg 3 jadik 2 kat R&R Genting Sempah,punca nye ramai org nak benti kat situ..ades..

abes je Genting Sempah,jalan sume clear..all clear,.siap pecut brape ratus ntah...tros masuk KL...

alhamdulillah,selamat...

sometime,i feel lonely..

sometime, i feel want to b all alone..

sometime,i feel like want to drive a car and hit everything in front of me..

sometime,i just can't accept whatever happen to me..

sometime,i hate myself..

sometime,i want to die.

perancangan

here u go..

baru je balik dari lecture ENT (ear,nose throat aka easy no tension),tajuk rini ialah neck swelling, invited lecturer from KPJ Hospital Seremban..huhu..Dr Har,nice people~

well,tgh dgr2 lecturer dia td, i was kindda thinking of my future. i started to plan my future internally but externally still pandang the slide shows various swelling kat leher yg amat2 menggerunkan (one of them is CA larynx..god,pls to all smoker if dpt tgk pic ni,mst pani da xnak smoke lagi!)

b4 this, sy pernah berhajat untuk menjadi O&G specialist (pakar sakit puan), sambut baby2, bantu masalah kesihtan wanita and stuff. Miss Maria from HPJ really inspired me to help this same species human being. time O&G posting dulu, i didnt care to stay in the labor room byk kali,byk hari pun,sbb excited tgk those husband and wife, their eagerness and excitedness to receive a cute and suci bersih child. but O&G bukan semudah and seindah itu. u are working 24 hours. u have to alert with emergency obs patient,name it : GDM,PIH-->eclampsia, baby nak kua tgh2 mlm with problematic congenital ds..hoho...

skrg, sy berminat pula dgn ENT..haha...just deal with ear,nose and throat, easy no tension kan?

tp bila blaja td,it's just a neck mass,BUT,hoho,still require a lot of attention from u doctor..u are dealing with foul smelling from ur patient's mouth and breathing, malignancy, fungating maggots,and byk lagi..well,mende pelik2 jarang kite dpt. for the sake of study, tu yg Dr Har tunjuk pic yg seram2..fuh2..but still, i will consider ENT for my future.

apa yg sy dpt dr berangan2 td?

i am 23 this year. will finish med school next yr,24 years old, insyaAllah..

housement for 2 years, wajib. so,agak2 abes dlm 26 thn.

sy xnak berhenti takat HO shj,nak teruskan dgn MO (medical officer), maybe around 2 yrs?

nape nak sambung?ye,sy nak pengalaman byk.pengalaman akan mengajar seorg dr lebih dr segalanya. kalau boleh,sy nak hospital yg x sibuk sgt..haha.sbb,kalo ptn x ramai,kite boleh buat byk procedure,i wanna be a skillfull dr...so,agak2 abes MO 28-29 thn..

insyaAllah,by time,da kawen kan?haning kids and family..

sy xnak terlalu sibuk.sy nak jaga family saya and at the same time,my career also growing up. ok,target by 30,ive a lot of experience. nak proceed dgn sambung study. oversea. bring my family. xyah la amik subject yg berat2, yg mkn masa bertahun2,and end-up abeskan masa byk kat hospital dr family sendiri. mana tahu,Allah izinkan, sy boleh dapat course 2-3 thn, master in ENT ke, master in whatever ke,xkesah la kan?

asalkan my family with me, support me and be at my side. hem,penting juge untuk sy mempunyai husband yg x terlalu sibuk tugasnya, yg boleh tolerate dgn kerjaya saya, yg boleh mendidik sy and anak2 sy dlm agama..(wah,sounds really matured from me..mekasih..hehe)

and at last, nak tau pe sy pk??haha..sy terasa mcm nak lecturing plak!!simple kan??

nape nak mengajar?

sbb,mengajar hanya office hour, xperlu on-call,lebih byk masa sy dgn family, boleh check buku anak2 (like what ibu had done to my siblings dulu2)and in-come pun byk,insyaAllah..maybe sy nak mengajar med student juge..improve my self-esteem, my attitude, my everything...

panjang juge angan2 saya ni..nak dpt yg senang,bukan senang..mst byk pancarobanya..kalo xde ujian,bukan hidup namanya kan?well,yg penting,sy ada target.

ok,that's it.

how about u?

moga Allah redha..

=p

aku mahukan hidupku

di kala ini,aku bersendirian,di rumah precint 9 (seronok sket sbb klas kul 11 ti)..kebelakangan ni,pelbagai cabaran mendatangi ku. its not physically tourched , but mentally..

xtahu mana satu..yg ini mahukan ini,yg itu mahukan itu..akhirnya,aku juge yg keseorangan..

well,dsbbkan agak 'kebal' dgn pelbagai rintangan ni,aku bersyukur, aku makin dekat diri padaNya..tiada tempat pergantungan lain selain Dia..

di sini,aku paste kan doa dr sahabatku.dia seorg yg sangat baik padaku.

dengan nama allah yang maha pemurah lagi maha mengasihani

selawat dan salam ketas nabi muhammad

dan ahli keluarganya dan para sahabat dan tabiin dan tabi' tabiin

ya rabbana,tuhan yang maha mendengar

yang membolak balikkan hati.tetapkan lah hati kami atas agam islam mu dan keimanan terhadap mu

ya tuhan

terima lah segala amalan kami,perbuatan kami,solat kami,rukuk kami,sujud kami,doa kami dan segalanya dari kami

ya allah ya rahman

hamba mu ini bermohon pada mu agar hari esok yang bakal menjelma,dapat menjadikan segala yang terbaik buat kami

ya tuhan

ketika esok menjelang dalam hidup kami,yang kami tidaj tahu ape yang tersurat untuk diri kami yang hanya tersirat dalm ilmu mu,jadikan ianya segala kebaikan dan jauhkan dari segla kemudhratan

ya allah

aku meminta,agar sahbat ku mimi dapat mentapkan ketetpan dalm dirnya agar sentiasa berusaha demi kejyaan akan datang,jauhkanlah dia dari segala rasa malas dan kurang mengambil berat dalam dirnya,moga segala bebanan yang akan ditanggung ketika pngajian dapat dia terima dengan hati yang terbuka

agar dia mengetahui yang semua itu adalh ketentuanmu ya Allah

hanya pada mu tuhan kami bertawakl kami bertubat dan kami kembali ya Allah

ya tuhan datng kanlah kepada kami kebaikan di dunia dan datngkanlah kebaikan pada kami dia khirat kelak

walhamdulillah

rabbilalamin

aminnnnnnnn