i was like really depressed right now..
i hate cars..
i hate accidents..
i hate cars!
well, its my secret actually..i hope i can keep it myself, as i hope i can control my anger and my emotional.but at last,i know i can't..i lost.. no one who wanna share it with me..just know how to blame,and blame and blame all to ME.
well yeah, last saturday, when i was on the way to my Saturday class, i involve in an accident.it was rainy and the road is quite slippery i guess. and at the selekoh before MEX highway,i can't control my car, and in sudden, i hit the divider.oh GOSH!i look back at my mirror and alhamdulillah, no cars behind me..and im still alive..i dun wish to stay in the hospital..alhamdulillah,everything is fine..and i hope my car is just fine..
but then, at the college, i looked back into my car,i was like,damn!teruk jugak accident nih..and i cant concentrate in the class, and i excuse at the half minutes..before that, i just texting my bro, inform him i involve in the accident..bcz i know,only my bro can help me..if i call my parents 1st, u can imagine. they will yelled out and surely i feel really bad. so,i hope my bro told my parents about the accident and yeah, he did it..
luckily at home,my dad already know the situation, and it took times for him to cool down..thats why i told my bro 1st..after my dad cooled down,baru kite leh tunjuk kete...sobz..gerun jugak bila baba tgk keadaan kete cmtu..but then,dia da tahu awal from my bro kan,so,ok la jgak..
then i asked my bro to repair the car, and totally it cost me rm900, excluding the painting..plus painting it was like rm1030..so, my parents decide to paint the car, and i paid half of it..
the next day when i was sending my little bro to swim class, i face another accident=(
which really2 make me feel down..
i didnt tell anybody i hit aunty akma's car..it was another story when i used proton to send her daughter back to her house. the car's break was not really tahan the car, and the car slip down and hit the kancil's door.unlucky day for me AGAIN.feel really depressed. why me??
and i went out from my car and apologized her.aunty akma is nice,she just said ok and nothing..and i HOPE the story ends there. ada la sikit kemek rasanye at the pintu but for me its not obvious.i dunno for other's eye cmne kan..and i was still mcm kene renjatan elektrik, for the second time time,berturut2..i keep on thinking of the car and i dunno how to react towards it.
and today, after a week the incident happen, aunty akma called my mother and said her husband was quite angry with the car's condition and ask my mother to do what.i was like,err...can't she told me what she want instead of calling my mother and tell her what had happen?and my mom told me during lunch and really2 make my mood down.. luckily my dad was away and he's not with us during lunch. kalo x, am not sure i can eat or not..
i was,aaaa!!!!!!!feel like to masuk tanjung rambutan and to stay there,not to kacau sape2.or i wanna fly away go to poland,and stay with mira forever..or i want to go to anywhere that people didnt exist.i feel depressed!
i know i will be responsible for what have i done.but i dun't like the cakap2,the sindiran2, the so what ever small thingy yg menyakitkan hati and minda come across me..i will pay, eventhough i was short of money.i know, i have to be responsible..ive told aunty akma that i ter hit her car, and apologized her. it is easier if she directly told me back that her husband want me to baiki her car instead of telling my mom and later on my dad will know and later on i will AGAIN will be scolded. and the story of mimi hit 2 cars in 2 days will really hot.ever.forever.
really i dun have anybody to talk with.
